Despite the fact that this week was supposed to be my ‘relax before the final push’ week, it has been extremely strenuous on my brain. It has been hard to stomach the decision out of Ferguson, MI. Having learned much more about colonial history this semester than I had ever known previously, I find it particularly hard to call my self an American native at horribly embarrassing chapter of history.

Having struggling to find my niche in Vancouver over the last 3 years, I have become increasingly excited about moving back to the Bay Area – which will always be my home. Though it is events like these and the responses towards them which makes me feel very skeptical about wanting to move back to the United States. I want to live in a place where citizens views are represented by their government representatives and legislatures. In Berkeley, this may be the case, though across the United States it is a completely different story. What do we have to do to produce this change?

When talking to my mom the other night she told me that Chelsea Clinton recently gave a speech to an all women’s college and indicated that if Americans wanted to see change that they should run for political office and go through the necessary steps to produce such change. Since her mention of this, I have thought long and hard about how I can change what I want to have changed. Do I want to run for office? Do I want to participate in the bullshit bureaucracy that is ever-so-present in modern-day politics?

To me, many of the politicians in power today aren’t in power to produce this change. They have other incentives for holding this power, like furthering legislature that will increase their personal wealth and status among the worlds elite, as opposed to making our world a better place. Some of these politicians crooked actions are so obvious and blatant, yet they still hold power. In short, I could never see myself trying to put forth honest legislature while standing next to individuals like Lindsey Graham or Mitch McConnell. If there’s a future where we’re all standing on a stage together, it means that somewhere along the line I took a very wrong turn.