I’M BACK… (far off in the distance…*O CANADA..but really, it’s just vancouver) and–
I’m not sure what I’m doing here.
I’m finally back in Vancouver after so many years…i must say that I’m thoroughly excited in the sense that I hope everything that I’ve envisioned in my head would will become true. But it’s really up to me, isn’t it? Life is just a series of spontaneous generalizations of attempts, realizations, discoveries, and other miscellaneous things after all.
In all seriousness though, I’m kind of nervous about everything. Well, that’s not exactly true. I’m just highly anticipating everything. I’m excited yet nervous. For the first time in forever, I’m finally studying something that I want to study. I won’t be attending a university level chemistry, biology or math class (disclaimer: not that i have anything against those courses or the people who take them) I’ll be taking creative writing courses, visual art studies, and film studies courses.
On one hand, i’m hella ready for this crazy, full of risks plunge, but on the other hand, i’ve never done anything like this. i’m the typical nerd student who gets good grades just from studying in high school. By all means, i’m not saying that i’m going to become an “artist.” Well, that really depends on how you define “art“, ain’t it? I just want to live. Hell, i just want to live. why is it so difficult?
This “art” thing, there’s no manual for what’s right or wrong. And by taking courses in these fields, there’s no absolute, no guarantee on what your future is going to look like. This “art” thing, this hella plunge. If I be wrong… not that there’s no looking back, but i’m definitely not getting any younger. does this sound funny coming from a 19 year-old?
It’s a major decision. And i don’t know how to be sure of everything. (i made mine while i was attending the University of Toronto, studying for my physical chemistry midterm. it was winter. great time to make this decision, ain’t it?) I believe i’m not the only one who feels like this.
What keeps me going and so determined about this decision is something that I’ve learned from my grandpa. He said that receiving an education is just gaining more experience, and fulfilling yourself as a person. What you do in the future can have absolutely nothing to do with what you studied.
So, i guess this is why i’ve returned. I’m here and not quite sure what i’m doing. but hey, i’m here. I’ve included a selection of photos i took in vancouver this August.
“NOT ALL OF VANCOUVER” | AUGUST 2016:
sunset on marine/cambie
a walk in the park
i love trees
trees are so tall
granville island public market grocery shopping trip
moment of silence
note: i've been driving lately, so i don't have a photo of the sunlight illuminating the vancouver city...that's the photo i'm currently missing. but no worries, i'll get it. but no driving and photo taking at the same time, that's for sure.
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