Today a friend told me this:
“Don’t feel obligated to do anything dude.. its YOUR life, you should be doing exactly what you want! If you want to travel, student loans can wait. And your fam can wait. And whatever else is in your way. These are the years to get to know yourself, I wouldn’t settle for anything less than what you want.”
These are words I don’t think I’d ever truly follow. However, it’s just another reminder that there is more to life than hard work, and obligations in my mind that don’t really exist.
Time to live!!
These obligations in my mind are unspoken forces of duty. I feel like I need to go back to my home town after I graduate, take care of my family, and work hard to pay off my debt so that I will be financially stable to help out the other members in my family that may need it. It’s deeply rooted in me, something I’ve always felt the need to do. When I was in high school, I worked a lot while achieving good grades so that I could feel the stability of money, and so that I could go to university. No one told me that I needed to do this.
I have always felt like my life needed to be quiet and dutiful. I forget that there is more to life than simply working and fulfilling my “duties”. So many people I know are going to travel, to experience new things. And for some reason I always restricted myself to thinking I could not do those things. My life plan was already set in my head. But my friend telling me that I should do some things I want to do made me think about some other things I might like to do, to live my life more fully. It’s something I need to think about, because as of yet my life does seem very textbook, and I don’t want to waste it.