Hello fellow bloggers!

I’ve been listening to a lot of Colbie Caillat songs. Again, I must say I absolutely love her new album & I think you should all check it out 🙂

Anyways, a lot of crazy things have been happening lately. I still remember in May when I was picturing what this summer would be like and ….it turned out completely different! Some things turned out to be  better than what I expected, while others, turned out to be a little worse than what I expected….but you know what? This teaches me a lesson, never ever make expectations (neither positive nor negative). What you expect turns out to be completely wrong like 95% of the time, unless, you are like some kind of psychic, but, I don’t really think so buddy. 😉 So keep thinking positive thoughts (check out Colbie’s “Think Good Thoughts” song) and just go with the flow. Yes, Go with the flow! Trust me, people that just “go with the flow” find themselves to be the happiest people on earth. They never expect anything to happen, and, when something positive happens they enjoy it twice as much. If instead, you keep expecting things to happen, you’ll end up being sad if they don’t. And, we all know that life’s second name is “mistery”, we might as well respect that. 🙂 Miss mistery has really tricked me this summer, and, I must admit that I wasn’t really happy 2 weeks ago when I came back to Van. I mean, I was super excited to head back, but, when I arrived I was disappointed/sad/confused/ (I guess the jet lag played a role here too?). I was just expecting too much from everything. Here’s a list of my expectations:

I was expecting to find a tidy, perfect apartment with an ocean view and a bigger room.

I was expecting to meet lot’s of new friendly people.

I was expecting to find a job right away.

And last but not least, I don’t know if this was an expectation or more of a “I wanted-but I kind of knew-something would go wrong” kind of thing, but, I wanted something to happen. Something that could’ve happened in May.

Yeah, these were my expectations, and none of them happened. So, to make myself feel better I said “ah, maybe destiny just wanted things to work out this way”, but then, days later, when I got to finally hang out with my awesome friends, I realized that I CAN change them. There’s always a solution to everything. And you know what? I’m really working  hard on making what I wanted to happen actually HAPPEN.  To solve failed “expectation # 1″I , I sent a room transfer request, and after 100000 emails and complaints, I was able to get a transfer offer starting august 17th. And guess what? I’m going to be rooming with my awesome friend Regina and I’m going to be on the same floor as Astrid and Emily…..couldn’t have asked for anything better! & Hopefully, in the future, other friends will transfer to our floor too!

To solve “failed expectation # 2”, I decided to hang out in crowded places more often, go on random adventures with my friends (Yes, it works! We met a really cute guy and a mime on Granville island) and participate  to the Marine Drive Events (staring tonight hopefully)!

To solve “failed expectation # 3” I stopped searching for jobs online and actually moved my booty. I went my friend Subodha downtown I gave my resume to 26 stores. So far, I got 3 interviews and I was hired by two places. However, “ambitious” is my second name, so I always try achieve the best, and, I didn’t take those offers because I know there’s something better for me out there. I know, I may sound stupid, but, I’ve  decided that I will just enjoy the rest of my summer and start working in the fall.

Check, Check, Check –  3 of my “failed expectations” are kind of solved. Now what? Well, there’s the fourth failed expectation, and this I believe, is the one that brought me down the most. I must be honest to myself, It really hurts when something “special”  (I guess I can call it like this) happens and then it just gets erased. It’s like if nothing ever happened. It’s like if I’m making stuff up in my head or something. You know, you talk to a person, and you sense that things changed. Like I honestly don’t know if I wasn’t straightforward back then, if it’s my fault because I didn’t make some things obvious, or if it was the other person who was just playing around with me. Problem is, it’s hard to believe it’s the other person’s fault because from what I see and hear that person is really nice. Anyways, Enough with me just writing confusing stuff that only my friends are probably gonna understand…this is about how I’m dealing with “solving” this. Well, honestly, I don’t know. Out of all the failed expectations, this one is the one I’m very confused about. All I tell my self is “go with the flow” I know  something can turn out to be positive.

And with that said, this was me just filling this page with my problems. I’m sorry, if any of you had to read about my life…but it’s a blog and  I just feel so much better when I can just write everything down. 🙂

If you read all of this, woah! thank you for reading!

 

Have an awesome day,

 

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