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she did WHAT with Owen’s picture??

Faces in the Crowd was definitely my favorite book we have read so far. It gave me a strange but interesting feeling, mostly because parts of the narrator’s life felt surprisingly relatable. When she describes her younger self living alone in New York, it made me think about what it means to be a young Latin American girl in a big western city. Her life and the stories she tells feel random and really fun, but also relatable in some way. She moves between apartments, lends keys to friends, sleeps in borrowed rooms, and even steals furniture at some point. It feels very “in your twenties,” where nothing is fully settled yet and life is mostly improvised.

“I would lend my apartment to people and seek out other rooms, borrowed armchairs, shared beds in which to spend the night. I gave copies of my keys to a lot of people. They gave me copies of theirs. Reciprocity, not generosity.”(7)

To me, it captures perfectly the feeling of being a foránea, living in a place that isn’t fully yours, where friends or lovers are your network of support. 

One thing I also really enjoyed about the novel was the narration itself. The story constantly moves between different timelines and compared to other books we have read in this course, I actually did not find this confusing at all. Instead, the fragmented structure made the story feel dynamic and unpredictable. The novel constantly blurs the line between truth and fiction. The narrator is writing about her past, but we never fully know which parts actually happened and which parts might be invented. I especially liked how the narrator’s husband reads the pages she is writing and questions them. At one point he asks, “Did you use to sleep with women?” (39), which made me laugh because it shows how even the characters inside the story are unsure about what is real. There are also moments where the narrator casually drops things that make you question EVERYTHING, like when she mentions “the kisses I gave my girlfriend’s boyfriend; the ones I gave my girlfriend” (45), which again blurs the line between confession or lies.

Another thing that stood out to me was the casual relationship with ghosts. The narrator mentions a ghost named Without who lives in their house, saying, “Sometimes Without rocks the baby while I’m writing. Neither of us is frightened by this, and we know it’s not a joke” (13). The narrator and her husband do not treat the ghost as something shocking or terrifying. Instead, it feels almost normal, like part of everyday life– very Latin American I would say.

I also liked the humorous tone throughout the book, especially the ironic tone. It is interesting how it is used to make kind of a social commentary (maybe?). For example, when describing her boss White, she says: “And in contrast to the majority of gringos who speak Spanish and have spent some time in Latin America and think that gives them a kind of international third-world experience that confers on them the intellectual and moral qualifications for—I don’t quite know what—White really did understand the fucked-up mechanisms of Latin American literary history” (27). Or the description of  “trustafarians,” which the narrator uses to describe certain Latin Americans who come from money but perform a kind of activist or bohemian lifestyle abroad, as if they could not actually afford it.

I was left with a doubt, actually many doubts but this is the main one. This novel felt kind of autobiographical, and I wonder, if the novel actually is about Luiselli’s life, and if Luiselli did actually work translating novels when she was younger, why didn’t she translate hers?

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gecko not chameleon

“The only thing about me that doesn’t change is my past: the memory of my human past. The past is usually stable, it’s always there, lovely or terrible, and it will be there forever” (55).

This whole book left me thinking a lot about an essay I did in first-year philosophy class, where I wrote about John Locke’s idea that personal identity is based on consciousness, especially memory, rather than the body or the soul. Reading The Book of Chameleons, I kept coming back to that idea. If names can change, if someone can buy a new past, and if even the narrator is a gecko with memories of a former human life, then what actually is identity?

What I found most interesting is that the novel seems to answer this question while also making the answer harder. On one hand, memory feels like the only thing holding identity together. Eulálio is not human anymore, yet he still defines himself through the memory of his human past. Buchmann’s story also shows that even if someone changes names or builds a different life, the past does not disappear that easily. The book keeps suggesting that memory is what gives continuity to the self, even when everything else changes (like becoming a gecko).

At the same time, the novel also made me question whether memory is really as stable as Eulalio says it is, even he questions it later: “At least, this is what I thought before I met Felix Ventura”(55). Félix literally sells people new pasts, which is such a crazy but also fascinating idea. It makes identity feel less solid and more like something narrated, performed, and even edited. That is probably why the book got a bit confusing for me with all the shifting identities and hidden names, but maybe that confusion is the point. These characters do not really have one fixed identity because they keep changing it, hiding it, or trying to escape it. But maybe deep down they do have their true identity because they remember it? Maybe they try to suppress their past memories to actually have a “new” identity? The novel almost makes you feel that blur while reading.

I also really liked the way the story was narrated. Having a gecko as the narrator already makes everything feel a little surreal, but the dream scenes made that even stronger. Those were some of my favorite parts of the novel because they made the line between reality and memory feel even less clear. When Angela Lucia says, “God gave us dreams so that we can catch a glimpse of the other side…”To talk to our ancestors. To talk to God. And to geckos too, as it turns out” (69), it feels like the novel is giving dreams a real function. They are not just random weird moments. They are another place where hidden truths, past selves, and buried memories come through.

So for me, The Book of Chameleons was really interesting because it made identity feel both fragile and impossible to pin down. That is what I found coolest about the book: it asks what identity is, but never lets the answer stay simple.

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“After all, what is robbing a bank compared to founding one?”

VERY Robin Hood-y. That line stayed with me the whole time I was reading. The quote already suggests that the novel is less interested in judging the robbery itself and more interested in the strange contradictions behind crime.

While reading the book, I kept thinking about modern crime stories like the Netflix show Money Heist. In those stories, we are usually given a somewhat clear reason for the crime. In Breaking Bad, Walter White starts cooking meth because he has cancer and wants to leave money for his family. Even in Roberto Arlt’s El juguete rabioso, crime is tied to poverty and frustration. But in Money to Burn, the robbery almost feels like it happens just because. We are never really given a full explanation for why these men chose this life.

What makes it even more interesting is that not all of them come from desperation. The Kid Brignone, for example, comes from a wealthy family. That detail disrupts the idea that crime is always about survival or poverty. Instead, it suggests something else might be driving him: rebellion, thrill, or simply a rejection of the expectations placed on him. Piglia never gives us a clear psychological explanation, and that absence feels intentional. Life, like the novel, does not always come with a backstory that neatly explains everything.

At the same time, the novel does something contradictory. Piglia humanizes the robbers without ever absolving them. They commit terrible acts of violence, yet there are moments where their humanity unexpectedly appears. One of the most striking (and lowkey cute) examples happens near the end with Dorda. For most of the novel, he is paranoid, violent, and filled with hatred for the police. Yet when he is dying, his thoughts are not about the robbery or the money. They are about the Kid:

“In contrast, he himself now wanted to go on living. He wanted to return to lying with the body of the Kid, the two embracing together in bed, in some hostel lost in the remote provinces” (202).

Cute… or at least strangely tender for someone who has spent the entire book surrounded by violence. It’s one of those moments that makes you pause and realize that even the most dangerous characters still crave intimacy and connection.

And then later:

“Then at last he could be reunited with the Kid Brignone, in the open country, out in the cornfields, out in the quiet nights” (203).

It almost reads like a peaceful fantasy in the middle of chaos. It is strange and almost ironic.

Because we know so little about the characters’ pasts, we end up judging them based only on what they do in the present moment. Piglia seems less interested in explaining why they became criminals and more interested in showing how people can be both dangerous and human at the same time.

But maybe the most interesting moment in the novel is not even the robbery itself, but what they do with the money afterwards. Instead of trying to escape with it or negotiate their way out, they burn it. Literally burn it. At first it almost feels ridiculous; they killed people for this money, risked everything for it, and then suddenly it means nothing.

The crowd is horrified, not only because of the violence, but because the money itself is being destroyed. And that reaction is interesting. The people watching seem more shocked by the burning of “innocent money” than by the deaths that led up to it.

“The idea got out that money is innocent, even when acquired as a consequence of death and crime” (170).

That line really stuck with me. It almost exposes the strange logic of the world Piglia is describing. The system itself is already corrupt; the robbery was made possible partly by inside information and shady connections with officials and police. So when the criminals burn the money, it feels less like a practical decision and more like a kind of defiance. It’s almost like they are rejecting the whole system of value that the robbery was supposedly about in the first place.

CONFUSING.

Which raises a weird question: who is actually worse here? The criminals who openly steal and kill, or the institutions that quietly allow corruption to exist behind the scenes? Piglia never gives a clean answer.

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maybe my favourite so far: the trenchcoat

I think my first thought after finishing this story was how strange the situation felt, but also how familiar it seemed in a different way. Nowadays, people gather, have dinner, talk about random things, and often avoid discussing politics, even when the political situation around the world feels chaotic or upside down. The difference is that today we usually avoid those conversations because they are considered awkward or “impolite.” In The Trenchcoat, however, the characters avoid speaking openly about certain things because they are living in Communist Romania, where speech and political opinions could be dangerous. That context changed the way I understood the small events in the story. 

Overall, it was a short novel and quite an easy read for me. However, I felt like bringing up so many different characters and even using different names for the same characters became a bit confusing. I am not sure if the author did this on purpose to show how unstable identity becomes in a world shaped by secrecy and suspicion. Instead of feeling like fully fixed individuals, the characters often appear through labels, impressions, or roles, such as innocence or simplicity. This makes them feel harder to pin down, which mirrors the uncertainty that runs throughout the novel.

What really stood out to me was the question about the trenchcoat that appears after the dinner party. At first, it seems like such a small and ordinary thing, just a coat left behind in the apartment. Normally, someone would probably just assume a guest forgot it and move on. But because of the political environment the characters are living in, I think it suddenly feels much more suspicious than it should. Instead of treating it as a simple mistake, they start to wonder if it could mean something more. The narrator even asks whether the coat might be a “trace” of something hidden, which made me think about how easily everyday objects can start to feel threatening in a place where surveillance and informants exist. I also think the fact that it is a trenchcoat might symbolize a spy or investigator, since that is the type of clothing they are stereotypically associated with.

To me, the trenchcoat mostly becomes a symbol of that constant tension and uncertainty. I imagine that when people live in a society where they feel watched or monitored, it probably changes the way they interpret normal situations. A forgotten object might not just be a forgotten object anymore—it might feel like evidence that someone was there secretly observing. I think this is why the characters start questioning everything: who left the coat, whether someone else was present at the dinner, or if someone brought an unexpected guest. What seems like a small mystery slowly turns into something much bigger because of the atmosphere they live in.

At the same time, I also kept thinking about the possibility that the coat might actually mean nothing at all. I think that idea is one of the most interesting parts of the story. It made me think that maybe the characters are projecting their own fears onto something completely ordinary. Because they live in a political system where hidden threats are real, it becomes difficult for them to believe that something could just be accidental or meaningless.

Personally, I think that unresolved ambiguity is what makes the story so interesting. The trenchcoat is never fully explained, and as a reader, I felt the same uncertainty the characters experience. In a way, the trenchcoat stops being important as an object and instead becomes a reflection of the environment the characters live in. It shows how living under authoritarian rule can shape the way people think and react, making them constantly question what might be happening beneath the surface of ordinary life.

 

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If on a winter’s night a traveler

To be honest, I did not like If on a winter’s night a traveler. I get why it’s considered creative, but my experience was mostly confusion and distance. In the beginning, when the narrator tells you where to sit, adjust the light, relax, and prepare to read. I remember thinking: why is he telling me what to do and how to feel? But it worked. It pulled me in immediately and made me aware of myself as a reader. For a moment I felt excited, like the book was personally inviting me into it. That is why I would have preferred a physical copy, to focus and settle into one world. On a screen I skim. This novel almost encouraged skimming because the stories kept restarting, and I never stayed in one setting long enough to care about the characters.

After chapter 1, the novel started losing me. The second-person narration confused me. Sometimes “you” are just reading a book, and sometimes “you” are actually living events: going to the bookstore, meeting Ludmilla, chasing manuscripts. I often couldn’t tell if I was inside a story or watching the Reader live his life. Instead of immersion, I felt like I was constantly trying to figure out what level of reality I was in. The plot felt almost plotless because every time one of the stories became interesting, it abruptly stopped and restarted somewhere else.

The one story I actually wanted to keep reading was the one in Malbork. The guy comes back to what he thinks is his hometown after being away for years, but everything feels slightly wrong. His family treats him like a stranger, the house doesn’t feel familiar, and even the girl he always believed was his sister might not actually be related to him. I found interesting the idea that your memories might not even belong to you, and I actually wanted answers. When it suddenly stopped, it felt like the first time the book took away a story I was actually invested in.

The characters did help me understand what the book was trying to do. I actually relate to Lotaria. I don’t naturally read novels for fun very often, I mostly read for school and interpretation. Because of that, I was analyzing it instead of enjoying the story, which I think the book was partly criticizing. 

I don’t approach reading hoping for some huge discovery, sometimes it honestly feels like another academic responsibility. By the end I understood the book’s point: readers search for closure, but reading itself might matter more than endings. I can respect that idea, and the writing is definitely clever, but for me a novel should eventually let me stay somewhere. This one kept moving, and instead of being inside the story, I mostly felt like I was studying it.

Cool ending though

Question: Why does the novel give a clear ending to the Reader and Ludmilla’s relationship but refuses to resolve any of the stories they try to read?

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