NEW YORK and My Week in the Big Apple

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“Tucked into every nook and cranny of New York City are depths of history and billions of stories and lives to understand, and it’s truly a gift to even catch a glimpse of it.”
– me, on Instagram, 9 weeks ago

I fell in love with Edward Rutherfurd and his cities with his latest epic historical novel PARIS, published in 2013. It became such a precious book to me that it sat on my desk–even after being finished–for months. I started reading SARUM (his first novel, published in 1987) next, but I never finished it. When the plans for my family’s trip to New York City were made, I set aside SARUM for NEW YORK. But I’ll get to my summer vacation in a few paragraphs.

With eight hundred pages of relatively small print and multi-multi-multi-multi-generational storylines, Rutherfurd gives you the time and space to fall in love with cities, by every definition of the phrase, “fall in love”. He shows all the sexy (and seriously unsexy) close-ups, revealing both the dark corners and astonishing views of the city, embedding the universal themes of family, romance, and hardship as he shares these cities in unparalleled literary intimacy.

NEW YORK in particular is thoroughly American, even though Rutherfurd begins the story in New Amsterdam, which then becomes the object of a tug-of-war between the Dutch and the British and then the Americans and the British. The binding familial story is the Master family line, whose prosperity rises and rises and falls slightly but never completely falters, from their beginnings as successful Dutch merchants to Park Avenue lawyers. But the Masters were once aspiring Americans, which makes them exactly like the many other families and characters who join the cast of NEW YORK, which is why I say that the novel thoroughly American. The dreaming and working hard and achieving featured in the novel is the prototypical American dream, of course. But my favorite part of both NEW YORK and New York City was the layers of texture, culture, and people. It is what you make of it, whether that is a beacon of hope and power or a city of betrayal and loss.

By the time I landed in JFK, the half-Loyalist, half-Patriot Master family was right in the heart of the American Revolution. I knew of Bowling Green, Broad Street, the Hudson River, and Trinity Church.

On my first two days on the Atlantic Coast, we were mostly in Atlantic City in Jersey (my godmothers love slot machines), but we drove into “the City” from Queens, where my grandmother lives, before going to pick my cousins up from the Newark airport. I didn’t realize until then what a big deal those Manhattan skyscrapers really were. I used to just put aside what I’d heard about the Manhattan skyline, but there truly is nothing like it. Not even Los Angeles, and certainly not even Vancouver, fit the description of “concrete jungle” anymore, now that I’ve seen Manhattan.

I fell in love with Manhattan the way you’re supposed to fall in love: “slowly, and then all at once” (thank you, John Green, for the most accurate description of falling in love ever).

I fell in love with the hot and sticky Manhattan. I fell in love with the way the city and its humidity clung to my skin, I fell in love with the way it suddenly poured while we were in Times Square, like an overcompensated apology for the heat.

I fell in love with Manhattan sitting in my awful seats at the Met Opera, watching a tiny Misty Copeland dance in what looked like a shoe box diorama below me as she made history for the American Ballet Theatre as their first African American principal dancer.

I fell in love with being a tourist in the City, wearing my Statue of Liberty hat and having pizza on Wall Street, trying to grasp all the important decisions being made steps away from me, all the important exchanges that have been made, were being made, will continue to be made.

I fell in love with the smaller-than-anticipated Statue of Liberty and all she must have stood for and the way her meaning has changed over the years. As I gazed down at Ellis Island from the ferry, I–a Canadian immigrant–imagined how different it would have been to come up to the Statue of Liberty after months at sea, believing that a better life lay behind her.

I fell in love with the Manhattan skyline from above the East River, crossing the Brooklyn Bridge with tired feet, taking seflies with my family and feeling the cars rumble beneath us.

But the falling in love “all at once” came when my cousins and I went for a walk around Central Park and then took a peek into the Upper East Side. This picture, below, is one of our favorites. My cousins are GOSSIP GIRL fans, so they had to visit the Met steps, of course.

Another famous Manhattan stereotype is that it is busy and fast and you blink and everything’s changed, but gazing at the skyscrapers backing the Central Park trees, sitting on the Met steps and watching taxis and people go by, I didn’t feel busy and fast and stress. I felt life, pounding the pavement and reaching into the clouds, bursting at the Hudson and the East Rivers. And it was life unlike anything else I’d experienced before.

I’m so grateful to Edward Rutherfurd for giving me the chance to extend my week in New York City in so many different directions: temporally, spatially, emotionally. I’ll be back for you again someday, NYC. ♥

 

MY NEW YORK CITY BUCKET LIST

  1. go to the top of the Empire State building
  2. visit the Strand bookstore
  3. watch
    1. The Phantom of the Opera
    2. The Lion King
    3. An American in Paris
    4. Misty Copeland dance… not from the family circle
  4. come back for Magnolia Bakery

My Date With Your Manuscript (How to Pace Your First 100 Pages)

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One of my biggest pet peeves when it comes to the craft and then the business of writing is the person who says that they want to write a novel but don’t enjoy reading–or at the very least, cannot even bring themselves to do it for the sake of their craft.

… what.

I honestly don’t think that should be even allowed. If agents and publishers and editors accepted credentials in addition to having written a solid manuscript, being a well-read author should be among those credentials that they look for. Being an intern with SG Literary Scouting over the summer has taught me more about writing novels than strict technical study ever would, and a similar practice should be encouraged for any author.

As an intern, I read the first 100 pages of up-and-coming/soon-to-be-published/bestselling North American novels, review them, and then make a recommendation to the book scout regarding whether or not the manuscript should be considered for international rights sales. Basically, I am one of the few gates you need to pass on one of many possible roads to get your novel published in foreign markets. Having this kind of power has taught me so much more about the business of selling a novel by using your writing, your craft, your novel. As a writer, I’ve always known that the first 100 pages are crucial, but I’ve never understood the gravity of that advice until I’ve had to read other people’s first 100 pages six times a week and make an opinion about whether or not they are worth an investment.

But let’s get to the juicy stuff:

I’m on a date with your manuscript. Like on any date, I’m hopeful but anxious. I’ve seen many ugly manuscripts with poor manners, and despite all the disappointment, I can still hang on to the hope that your manuscript is The One.

  1. You have 10 pages to get me hot and sweaty.Observations: Do you walk in nervously? Or do you make it clear what your purpose is immediately? If you aren’t straightforward, then make me curious. Introduce yourself confidently, hugging me warmly at our first meeting, flatter me at once. Or introduce yourself slowly and shyly, give me a mysterious smile, and give an alluring but vague observation about how I look tonight.
  2. Because I’m on a date, and I’m a wishful thinker (i.e., I’m an intern, and I have to go through with this), I’ll give you until page 40. Max.By page 40, if there isn’t a purpose, what the hell am I even doing here? Why haven’t you set me up with conversation topics? Make me ask a question that I so desperately want you to answer.
  3. Somewhere between pages 50-80, I have to stop counting pages. Distract me. Woo me. Whisper sweet seductions. Make me want more.At some point, I need to be listening intently to your story. You need to have reeled me in. Made me glance at my phone and said, “Is it really that late?”
  4. If I can surmise the important details of your first 100 pages–our date–in two sentences, nothing important has really happened.When my girlfriend texts me after the date and asks how it went, “good” is not the response you want me to give her. If she asks what happened, and all I can say is, “We talked and ate for a bit”, nothing memorable/worthwhile/worth retelling happened.
  5. If I can’t describe an inciting incident, I’m probably not going home with you.

When querying and submitting manuscripts, I know it’s common practice to ask for the first 100 pages. But it is people like me who are reading those first 100 pages: people who have to read it. You need to be thinking about the endgame: readers, consumers, browsers in bookstores. If you don’t get them immediately, they won’t even be making it to page 100. So make every one of those pages count.

Reflecting Upon Happy Days: Day 10

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My friend, Faye, was suggested by another friend of hers to do this Instagram tag challenge called the 100 Happy Days Challenge. Now, I’m not necessarily in need of a pick-me-up. I am just pretty human, and I have my bad days, but if you asked me to grade the status of my life, I’d probably give it the best score possible. Sometimes I struggle to get out of bed in the morning, but my life would be less perfect if I didn’t.

Regardless, I loved the idea of sharing something visually and explaining why it made me happy, so for ten days now, I’ve posted pictures to Instagram of things that have made me happy. I’ll include some of my favorites in this post.

I’ve really enjoyed the past ten days. I always feel like I want to do something. The project has motivated me to not only get up and carpe diem, but it’s made me excited to do something that makes me happy. I think a lot of unhappiness I see grown-ups experience is because they do things that don’t make them happy. I’m old enough to understand that sometimes we don’t have a choice, and sometimes sacrifices have to be made, but what I’ve found so far is that we can find something every day that makes us happy.   

There’s also something about sharing happiness that makes the happiness even more tangible and real. Now, don’t get me wrong: I am without a doubt a child of the digital age. Unless I tried really hard, there’s no way I’m going a day without visiting Facebook, YouTube, Twitter, or Tumblr. I’m addicted to checking my email. But I’ve never been someone who counts likes. I’ll notice when my friends and family pay a lot of attention to something, but I don’t change my profile picture and wait for it.

For the challenge, however, I find that I want these likes. Having people interested in my happiness does wonders for my happiness. I mean, it works regardless, obviously. What made me happy on a given day will still make me happy even if nobody knows about it, but if my friends and family do know about it and like it, I feel more like my well-being and happiness is something that matters to them.

#100happydays #IAMUBC #nofilter (because duh, it doesn’t need it) I’ve been on summer break for over 3 weeks now, and UBC is a long commute from home, but you can’t keep me away! @itsfayeee let me sit next to her in a very intimidating Gateman ECON101 lecture. I learned a lot (particularly about price elasticity of demand) despite having very minimal exposure to economics, and I’d love to take some economics courses if I could. But after an hour, I decided I wanted to get some of my own work done (and Gateman doesn’t allow electronics…), so I relocated outside and was very glad I did. My beloved school, as always, was picture perfect, and soaking in the sun while reviewing a manuscript felt so great. Reading books for an internship while at the school of my dreams felt really fulfilling… I’ve had an impression that turning a hobby or passion into a career is a tough thing to do, but today, I felt pretty good about it. A photo posted by Jia Faner (@howdoyouwords) on

#100happydays #thefluffymovie Many of my guy friends do this thing. They’ll be saying something, saying something, and then they’ll change their tone of voice and say this phrase that sounds almost like a catch phrase, and the other guy friends will jump in and they’ll continue to say the next phrase in unison. Then they’ll usually start laughing. I don’t know what it is, but apparently guys always watch the same comedians, and none of them have ever bothered to expose the rest of us to the funnies… except tonight! I watched the last half of Gabriel Iglesias’s stand-up comedy film with @natesoer and BOY DID I LAUGH. I think being a stand up comic might be one of the hardest occupations out there. Humor is such a fickle and diverse thing (as evidenced by the few Cards Against Humanity games I’ve lost). Fluffy falls into the class of people I admire most, though, and it’s not comedians: it’s story tellers. Laughter is his hook, but the real skill in comedy is attaching the funnies to things that matter, to the truths of life. One day, a controversial teacher at my high school was saying some of his usual controversial things, and the class started laughing. He mused, “This is quickly becoming stand up comedy… the truth tends to do that, doesn’t it?” A photo posted by Jia Faner (@howdoyouwords) on

The last thing that I’ve learned in the past 10 days is that 100 Happy Days isn’t going to mean 100 days of happiness, straight. I’m still going to feel stressed and sad and lonely and even unhappy for moments or even hours or maybe even the whole day. And that’s okay.

Happiness isn’t about ignoring those things, exactly. It’s about deciding what in your life is worth highlighting, sharing, and being proud of and letting those things be featured on Instagram, and not the other things.

Summer Reads: “The Grapes of Math” (Bellos) — Why a Literature Student Loves Math

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The first of my summer reads is The Grapes of Math: How Life Reflects Numbers and Numbers Reflect Life by Alex Bellos, known as Alex Through the Looking Glass in the UK…. for a reason. I prefer the original title, because it shows the connection between mathematics and literature. Lewis Carroll, the author of Alice in Wonderland, was lesser known as Charles Dodgson, a mathematician and logician.

As I have written about before, I am a numberphile, but unfortunately, numbers are not Jiaphiles. I have always been, without a doubt, humanities-minded, but I had a fantastic teacher in grade 10, who introduced to me the foundations of mathematics and pre-calculus and helped me to the first A I remember receiving in math. Math became a different kind of magic to me over the next few years. It was my little glimpse into the wonders of science. Two-thirds through my integral calculus course in university, however, I realized that barely passing math was just not in my wiring. Although I was fascinated by math, it was not worth making my GPA suffer.

Imagining a world in which I could not learn about math and draw sigmas and summands, however, made me quite sad. The next time I walked into a bookstore, I headed straight for the science shelf, and I found these creative non-fiction works related to math, and I knew I had found my outlet. Bellos’ Grapes of Math is the first book I’ve finished this summer.

I don’t know how to recommend it to the regular reader–that is, someone who didn’t venture into university calculus–because I think that some of the things I read made much more sense because I was familiar with e and π and and x, y. I do know that the book is written to be accessible to everyone. It is truly a book on how life reflects numbers and how numbers reflect life, and in that way, I think it is a book for the layperson.

The book is personal, interesting, and reads like a story. All of the concepts that I had taken for granted in school suddenly had a history and a discovery behind them. People had to think deeply about the important beginnings of chapters that I barely studied for. It made math feel like reading Hobbes’ Leviathan or Plato’s Republic… but the connection between Plato and math really isn’t that far.

The note on the author at the back of the book tells me that Bellos is a professor of not only mathematics, but of philosophy, and that is so important.

So many of my peers see science and art as something so separate from each other. Being “humanities-minded” means that I cannot appreciate mathematics… but nothing can be farther from the truth. The giants of mathematics, the shoulders of whom mathematicians and physicists like Newton sit on, were Greek philosophers. Mathematics, the purest of sciences, arose from the thinking and the search for wisdom involved in philosophy, perhaps seen as the “fluffiest” of the humanities.

When I wanted to specialize in both English and math, and I told people this, I always got a reaction. People said it was interesting that my brain worked like that. One of my oldest friends claimed my brain was “too powerful”, which he meant as a joke and was one that I laughed at. The art of mathematics reminds me so much of English. Reading The Grapes of Math reminded me that students of math are only studying and building upon discoveries and philosophies of mathematicians before them, using their theorems and proofs to solve real life problems. How different is that, really, from students of literature reading Shakespeare and Wordsworth and applying those stories to their own stories? How different is it from knowing the universal expectations of language and communication and using them to effectively articulate our original thoughts, to create greater and stronger connections between one another?

To me, I don’t see much of a difference. Thank you, Alex Bellos, for reminding me of that. ♥

Being an Arts One “Alumni”

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The night before our Arts One final exam, my seminar professor gave us these words of wisdom:

Dear all…. Rest up, relax (yoga, stretching, etc.) and try to remain calm on this Crawfish exam eve. This is a rite of passage for you soon to be Arts One alumni and I know you will all do well. Focus on the exam now and I will have news about essays very shortly.

I remember sometime around the ending of my grade 7 year–which had been a very good year for me–I had meditated and felt overwhelming sentimentality for the passing of an era. Arts One was substantially better than my grade 7 year. (That’s so strange. Being 12 years old doesn’t feel very far away, but suddenly being 12 and being 18 seem so far apart, and it occurs to me that 12 year old Jia and 18 year old Jia are two entirely different people.) Despite the fact that being 18 was much better than being 12, it didn’t quite hit me that I was an Arts One alumni, and I don’t think it has, really.

I think that Arts One has affected me more than it did for a lot of the people who I shared the program with, and I’m not even sure why that is, to be honest. I think we all knew that the program was wonderful, and I think at least on some level, we’re going to miss it (some of us more than others). It was easily the highlight of my first year, and I’m so grateful for what its given me. Other than the academic tools its equipped me with, I’m so grateful for the seminar I was in, to be surrounded by intelligent, worldly, curious, but still very normal students who were given to procrastinating and not always putting in all their effort, normal students who–most importantly–always loved to laugh.

As I write that, I think that’s what I might miss most from ARTS 001B LB2. I intend on having a similar academic experience through the Honours English program, but I will never again be in the same classroom as all 20 of the laughter-loving and wisdom-loving friends I made. Regardless, the things I learned from them and the time I spent with them will always be precious.

To any incoming Arts One students–make the most out of your seminar. The group I was in was so diverse, with a variety of interests (academic and extracurricular) and values and habits, but the group would not have been the same if any one of them had been missing. I could not have hand-picked a better group to go through my first year of university with. We were probably the closest seminar in the entire program, but it’s a scenario easily enough recreated if you put in the effort.

To my dear Crawfamily–thank you for your wonderful thoughts, your company, and your shared laughter. It’s been absolutely one-of-a-kind.

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Reassembling Arts One: Hobbes’ The Leviathan

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I almost feel like I don’t need to write a post about The Leviathan because Crawford has threaded it through Arts One from beginning to end–if there was a week in which Hobbes wasn’t mentioned…

… nope. There were no such weeks. Regardless, I’m going to write about it because it’s probably one of my favorite texts, and it’s definitely Crawford’s, so I’m sure writing knowledgeably about it on the exam will score some kind of brownie points.

Hobbes and Plato–despite their radically different philosophies on the nature of man–both use this dialectic method of argument. (e.g., that is true, so this must be true, and thus, this also is true, etc. etc.) However, I find Hobbes’ argument much more compelling. The numberphile in me is likely drawn to Hobbes’ similar love of geometry (another resemblance between him and Plato) and its application to the other thing I love, which is the study of humans. Kind of. Hobbes is a political philosopher, but it still applies.

I think the tendency is for people to misunderstand Hobbes. For all I know, I have… but there’s so many things that can be misconstrued and have been (i.e., Rousseau saying that Hobbes believes that man is naturally evil -> false). I don’t think Hobbes says anything truly outrageous, though. Making the claim that without a covenant to a sovereign, individuals are “in a condition of war of everyone against everyone” and that they have a “perpetual and restless desire of power after power” does sound kind of pessimistic… but I believe Hobbes can be interpreted in a way that isn’t so pessimistic. (At any rate, that’s how I’ve interpreted him.)

Firstly, Hobbes points out that this condition of war arises because man is equal in nature. Thus, equality of nature creates equal hope of achieving ones’ means. Already, Hobbes makes the quite liberal argument that man thinks, hopes, and opines equally, and to my university undergraduate student ears, that sounds pretty reasonable. Pretty compelling. There’s also the argument that there is value in cooperation, and even man in the state of nature, I’m sure, can recognize this.

Secondly, Hobbes defines power as the means to attain ones’ ends or desires. Christina Hendricks pointed out during her lecture of Hobbes that this could be a variety of things, and power does not necessarily have to have the ruthless, ambitious, possibly war-like connotations we have attached to it. My classmates gave money, friends, and even bearing children, as examples.

Isn’t it amazing how different readings can completely change a text? I’m pretty sure what I just suggested is not how Jean-Jacques Rousseau read Hobbes. I wonder how different A Discourse on the Origins of Inequality would have been if Rousseau had read The Leviathan this way.

 

Reassembling Arts One: Homer’s The Odyssey

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Considering The Odyssey has its roots in the oral tradition, I probably should have listened to it the first time around. I purchased the audio book of the same edition we were reading for class, and the narrator happens to be Magneto, a.k.a Ian McKellen, but that’s not really important. I just think it’s cool.

Probably the biggest stand out thing to me, listening to Sir McKellen read The Odyssey out loud, is how societal the whole thing is. It’s made particularly obvious because the interactions between people and what those people value and admire are so different from how my peers and I interact and what we value and admire. “Societal” probably isn’t the best word to describe it–but the interconnected-ness of humans is so striking to me.

Audio books are usually just sound to fill the silence for me. I’m fairly sure I don’t know how to go to bed without listening to one anymore. (I’ve listened to the Anne series almost enough times to recite them from memory.) I obviously can’t do this with The Odyssey, since I’m reviewing for the exam, so I make a particular effort to truly listen. As a reader, I skim by a force of habit. Big blocks of text and overbearing descriptions tend to pass my eye. Listening to The Odyssey and trying to focus, however, brought to my attention things that had not initially occurred to me the first time I read.

During the first few books/chapters, Telemachus visits his missing father’s old friends. As is the ancient Greek tradition, hospitality is of paramount importance, and this becomes so much more obvious, listening to The Odyssey. Homer goes into great detail about the homes and feasts of Telemachus’s hosts, describing the grandeur down to every twinkle and shine, to every flavor and spice. It’s kind of like, what a person gives is so much more important than what he or she actually has.

That same logic applies to the value of story telling. Lies are not condemned in this world; Athena, goddess of wisdom, even admires Odysseus for his skillful lies–even if they are to her. What a person says is so much more important than what is actually the case.

This is likely me in this mindset because of preparing for the exam (which is tomorrow [!!!]), but there are so many layers of self-made identity for the characters in The Odyssey (and Margaret Atwood’s almost-modern retelling, The Penelopiad), but that self-made identity is also shaped and molded by outside influence. I think The Odyssey and The Penelopiad are probably among the best (literary) illustrators of dialogical identity from the reading list this year.

Faith, Love, and Kierkegaard

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Perhaps one benefit to being on the bus so often is that it’s given me time to be in my own mind again. (It’s simultaneously one of the evils of such a long commute, but I won’t talk about that.) I had barely left home this morning when I was already thinking pretty deeply, reminiscing about two years ago… and thinking about Kierkegaard. I know I just blogged about him, but that might be why I made a connection to him this morning.

Kierkegaard expresses this admiration of Abraham because of the faith Abraham has, which Kierkegaard says is beyond understanding. During my second reading of Fear and Trembling, I thought that Abraham and his faith were paradoxical, incomprehensible, just as Kierkegaard says it is. Could I imagine giving up my son–who was promised to me after years of being denied him–and even delivering the blow myself, for the sake of faith in God? No. I couldn’t. Not that I had a particular yearning to imagine, let alone know, this feeling of Ultimate Faith.

However, I figure that love is a kind of faith, especially loving again. I wouldn’t change anything of early-middle teens, no matter how ugly it was (in retrospect). After all, I’ve come to realize that I was in my early middle teens and not nearly as wise as I deluded myself to think that I was (and I’m sure the trend continues into my late teens), but I haven’t forgotten that everything I felt and experienced was very real and very valid. I’m far enough away from my first boyfriend (emotionally, temporally, and–thank goodness–spatially) to almost think, “God, Jia, you were so petty, you were immature, you were so ridiculous”, but I don’t want to give my younger self that condescension. I was fifteen, sixteen. (And I also recognize that I have to give that same concession to him. So, you know, if by some chance you’re reading this, this is a kind of forgiveness–not that I want you back in my life, because hindsight does wonders for a person.)

I remember feeling so angry, so frustrated, and so confused. How could you promise someone certain things and then cheat on them? Is that not in the back of your mind? What outcome did he see from what he was doing? Could he even see an outcome? If not, how does anyone live like that? So without aim, without conscience?

These are questions I still haven’t answered. (“He’s an asshole” is the limited conclusion I have arrived at, and I’m completely fine with it.) I wrote down once that no one could ever promise me what I wanted them to promise me. At the time, I felt like those kinds of promises were meaningless. Nobody knew how they would feel about commitments until they were at the middle or end of “the long run”. I remember being terrified of that prospect. I’ve always been a scheduler, a planner, and the idea that I could not be able to trust a person to stay in my long-term plan was so frustrating.

And yet, here I am, having faith in the long term, and it doesn’t scare me like it did at the time. Despite everything I said nearly two years ago now, I’m not afraid of being committed. I don’t think I could be, to be honest. It’s just in my wiring to want and have a partner like Nathan. I was so sure, even when Nate and I were first getting to know each other, that I wouldn’t want to stay with him for a few months, let alone for a full year… but this is my faith, and I am happy in this infinite resignation and this inexplicable faith. Being with Nathan is my incomprehensible faith. How could I believe in the long term? I don’t know, really, but I don’t think Abraham knew either. Even if he did know, Kierkegaard makes the claim that he couldn’t explain to anyone his faith, and that that is what makes it faith. And I think I can understand that now, on a personal level.

Reassembling Arts One: Kierkegaard’s Fear and Trembling

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As part of my review for my final, I’ve decided to blog about some of the texts I felt I never fully understood (*cough* or read *cough*) throughout the year with Arts One so that I can at least be a little prepared if I have to identify a quote during the exam.

First on my list is Fear and Trembling by Søren Kierkegaard, read along with the Book of Genesis, but I haven’t finished rereading that one. So first thing’s first.

The first time around, I had difficulty fully comprehending Kierkegaard, and I still obviously don’t fully comprehend it. Kierkegaard and I are better friends now, though. A lot of his argumentation seemed very stream-of-consciousness at the first time I read it, thus I had a hard time connecting ideas together and relating it to “the big picture”, but rereading the text has helped me appreciate the ideas better.

Something that didn’t quite occur to me the first time around was the implication that Kierkegaard was making on faith. Growing up in a very Catholic Filipino family and attending an all-girls Catholic school for five years, faith becomes something of the every day. Say your prayers–“God will provide”, even if not in the way that you expect. I agree with Kierkegaard, however, that faith isn’t something of the every day. It is beyond all logic, paradoxical in its premise and in its execution because of the universal.

I think Kierkegaard’s endeavor isn’t something that I engaged myself in completely the first time I read his book. I didn’t grasp how engaging in faith was engaging in something incomprehensible, and I definitely didn’t find myself admiring Abraham the same way that Kierkegaard does, but I’m beginning to see it now.

Being a seat vulture

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Not even a week ago, I had said that winter and spring were fighting for dominance, and I gave my prediction that spring would emerge victorious. I, apparently, should not speak so soon. On the day of the week that I spend the most time walking, I woke up to the sound of relentless pitter-pattering of rain outside my window. Winter is not going down without a fight, although one could argue that spring rains are a thing, especially in Rain-couver.

20150325_140240The east window of the Douglas College David Lam college, looking out onto Lafarge Lake

After my annual eye exam (it went well! My right eye has “gotten better”, and I got ~stylish~ new glasses), I made my way to Douglas College for my weekly Wednesday study sessions. As my boyfriend is a Douglas student, and I’m much closer to both Douglas campuses than I am to UBC, I like spending a few hours of my day here to get a large bulk of my studying done.

20150325_140234My “study sprawl” today, featuring my last Arts One text and the makings of my last Arts One essay

 Actually, not only am I much closer to both Douglas College campuses, I’m also much closer to Simon Fraser University. Despite this, I chose not only to study at the University of British Columbia but to spend three hours a day commuting there so I could attend. One of my new friends remarked to me recently that I get very defensive about my commuting time, and I do. It’s probably from some deep-seated desire to be closer to campus, but logically, I really don’t mind commuting. For my first year at UBC, commuting has not only been an okay option, it was the much better option.

If any incoming first years or anyone else considering rez is reading this… take my enthusiasm for commuting with a grain of salt (obviously). There are so many good things to be said about rez, but commuting–even such long distances–is really not as bad as it might seem (or even as it might feel for you during the first few days).

The most obvious reason I’d recommend you commute is it saves you a heck of a lot of money. Having parents pay for your groceries is a wonderful thing.

For me, spending as much time as I do on transit every day has been quite productive for my schooling. Earlier in the year, I thought I couldn’t sleep on transit (ha!), so I got so much of my reading done. What with Arts One, I had a lot of reading to do in a short amount of time, and if I wasn’t on the bus during the day, my chances of getting reading done were not that high. As an avid reader (or someone who is trying very hard to be an avid reader again), the train and bus are the best places to be.

Of course, there is also sleeping on transit! I’m not brave enough to do this except when I’m riding the train or bus to the end of the route, and some of my friends have fallen asleep so deeply that the bus driver has had to wake them up, but it can be done. On particularly busy hours on particularly busy routes, getting a seat may be a problem, and when you’re on buses like the 84 (VCC-Clark to UBC)–that are almost always occupied by regular commuting students–you’re going to need to be what I call a “seat vulture”, because everyone else around you is probably going to be one, too.

Although that isn’t fair to say. There have been many polite transit-takers who have given up seats for people. (I’m ashamed to say I’m not one of them.)

On days like today, when the rain was and still is relentless, sometimes I wish I had a chauffeur or a license or a car or a parking pass, but I don’t regret not shelling out the cash to live on residence. I’m happy I stayed home, close to my parents, my dog, and my boyfriend, and I’m also happy I make the effort three days a week to go to one of the top universities in the world.

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