I apologize in advance. This is a weird post.

I forgot how much I missed photography.

I went to Stanley Park on Sunday. All alone.

My phone just randomly restarted which is weird.

Anyway, while I was at the park I saw a seagull eating a fish. And then I sat there for about ten minutes photographing it. People were walking by giving me that look: “Ugh. Teenagers.” I didn’t feel like this was entirely warranted, seeing as all I was doing was taking pictures. Maybe they were concerned for the seagull’s privacy.

He looks satisfied and not at all concerned about his privacy.

Anyway, I won’t lie. I’ve been feeling really disconnected and weird lately. It’s like a mix of homesickness and social awkwardness that makes me simultaneously want nothing more to be home and yet not want to leave Vancouver. I wasn’t sure what to do with this feeling and I’m still not quite sure. But a walk in the park helped, as cheesy as it sounds.

Maybe it’s stress. Although that would be odd because usually that’s not how stress manifests itself in me. Usually I just feel headachy and grumpy, not socially disconnected. I won’t say that the walk cleared up everything, because that would be a lie and I don’t lie, but it certainly helped.

How could this not help?

Maybe I should have talked to the seagull. Maybe then I would feel less lonely. (If indeed I am feeling lonely. Which I’m not sure that I am.)

I think I started this post with a point in mind but it’s gone now. Maybe later I’ll post something substantial. But knowing me, probably not.

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But actually, this is the real photo.