Transparency.

Hi all,

I’ll start by saying that what I’m about to say isn’t all I have to say about this topic. Yep.

But given what’s going on in my head right now, I thought it would be a good time to give you an accurate picture of what being a Grad Student can sometimes entail:

“Failure Failure FAILURE! You have so much to do, your goals are impossible! You have wasted an entire month! You can’t even accomplish non-grad-school goals! – But wait, I can handle this, look how much work I’ve already done. – Yeah, you’re only going to think that for 30 more seconds… FAILURE. Why don’t you waste another hour? Make more social plans? Eat more junk? You can’t beat this. You will always fall short of what you wish you could be.”

Does my edited stream-of-consciousness sound familiar? Perhaps like a recent interpretation of a supervisor email? Yeah. That’s all my brain.

Anyway, as I said I will go into more detail soon, but I feel like I don’t have enough time to spend an hour or more writing a descriptive post. I’ll be back soon. And don’t worry, I haven’t gone emo or work in complete darkness. This mood is on the negative end of normalcy, but I’ll be honest with you: it’s normalcy all the same.