Howdy partner,
Soooo, this book was a little humbling, definitely unlike anything I’ve read before. The best word i have to explain how this book made me feel is almost as if it was gaslighting me. In some way it made me think and read as the protagonist, taking me on this endless search for the ending of a book I wasn’t asked if I wanted to read. I was honestly vibing with the beginning hook of this mysterious atmosphere and then BOOM! It cuts off… a printer error that honestly felt personal, and suddenly I was diving into conspiracies about fake translations and secret societies.
This book is written in a way that every time makes you believe that you’ve finally found the “real” book, then they pull the rug under you and it continues with a brand new story that leaves you even confused with the genre. Like how do you go from a spy mystery to a to say the least… interesting japanese drama. I guess it kept me on my toes throughout the reading.
I guess the book really made me value endings, the constant human need for a conclusion in everything we read or do. It made me realize how much of an anxious reader I am… usually when I’m reading a book and there is some major development taking more than one page, I skip through a couple pages just to make sure none of my beloved characters died, but this book didn’t allow me to do that which was frustrating but also taught me I should control my anxiety. Overall if felt like a little adventure, with the message behind that at the end of the day books are a way of bringing people together and that sometimes the anticipation of what happens next and that attempt to read a little faster to get to the next page ends up being the beauty of reading, at least in my opinion.
I think I liked the book? (emphasis on the question mark) maybe It taught me some cliche that the ending you want isn’t always the best one or something.
Do you guys have reading anxiety too or am I the only one (should probably work on myself )?
See ya!
XOXO
One reply on “So like seriously, what is the end?”
Hi Marihnav,
I quite agree with the “humbling” experience. This novel really tested the norms of convensional storytelling and– though complex at times– did a great job at keeping me engaged. Though I have to admit being gaslit every chapter was not fun 🙁
I can’t say that I usually have reading anxiety, but this story might have caused me some. Though, I guess as long as it does not cajse you to suffer, reading anxiety might also be good. It demonstrates your passion for the characters and plots you read, of course you don’t want them to die!