random rant

There are two ways of understanding ‘happenings’ in life:

1. They happen for a reason.

2. Believe that they happen for a reason and act accordingly.

In reality, there’s no difference between the outcomes of the two ways of understanding. Whether they actually happen for a reason or that you believe they happen for a reason is actually the same thing.

Am I not making sense? Maybe. My eye is still swollen. I’m still stuck at home during my precious holidays. I’m pretty disappointed I won’t be able to go on my epic trip down to Zimbabwe.

But I guess since this infection and stay-at-home restraining order happened for a reason, I’ll use this time to sort out my life and my work (actually I started working again yesterday because I was just so damn bored. If anyone ever tries to tell me to stay at home and not work, I will instantly die from boredom). Maybe even get around to sending holiday greetings to people.

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Ideas for Graduate Studies Research #1

I’m mainly interested in the impacts of economic systems on marginalized communities. Most can agree that the capitalist system has failed to deliver its promises to the poorest of the poor in the drive for globalization.  In my perspective, the capitalist model is fundamentally incompatible in servicing the poor and must be systematically changed for more equitable and sustainable development. My question is thus divided into threefold:

  1. How is the current economic system (capitalist in paradigm, hybrid in theory, and a mish-mash of economic schools in practice) is impacting marginalized communities in the developing world?
  2. How best can marginalized communities prepare for the impact of the increasing introduction of the current economic system into their economic and social spheres? (short term strategy)
  3. How can the current economic system be changed so that it can work more in favour of marginalized communities? (long term strategy)

My intention is to use food security as an indicator to focus my research. Food security is chosen for a number of reasons:

  1. Most marginalized communities are in rural areas or urban areas where agriculture is practiced (urban agriculture). Almost all economies in these marginalized areas are based on agricultural activities, on the production of food. Hence, the closest link between rural and global economies is food, specifically the import/export of food and food production related products (such as fertilizers or seeds).
  2. Food security is a large indicator encompassing wider perspectives such as public health, market accessibility, and environmental sustainability.  Adequate food, with sufficient amount and nutrition, is the basis for healthy human development. Properly grown food should not deplete the soil, which is one of the most challenging problems in conventional agriculture methods, but rather build up the organic layers.
  3. Food security is my own academic and working interest. The focus of my undergraduate studies was in development studies, economics, and food systems. Also, my working experiences can all be liked back to different aspects and manifestations of the concept of food security.

Hence, I propose to investigate the linkage between the current global economic system and marginalized communities by looking at food security as a case study.

Dala diaries

Riding on the dala dala is always eventful. If not the dripping sweat, sardine-like cramming type of eventful, then it’s the interesting cultural difference type of eventful. Here’s a few recent little surprises:

– someone just plopped their baby on my lap. According to my friends, this is quite common. People just trust you with their babies when the bus gets too crowded. Plus, everyone needs at least two hands, if not three, to hang on tight when there’s a crazy driver.

– people also plop their belongings on your lap. I guess if they can trust you with their babies, they can trust you with their belongings. I’ve also had people offer to take my bags when the dala gets crowded. Nothing has ever happened with any of my belongings. Apparently people just don’t steal on a dala (people on the street, however, often reach in through the windows when there’s a traffic jam; no texting in a traffic jam if you sit next to a window!). I guess mob justice can happen pretty badly in an enclosed space.

– for some reason, I often have lots of 50 Tsh coins (the smallest denomination). Conductors (there are two people who run a dala, the driver and the conductor who collects money and shouts out destination names/stuffs people into the dala) love changing money with me. Walking along dala routes, you would find tables with stacks of small coins. Apparently it’s quite a business, finding 50 Tsh coins and exchanging it with dala conductors.

– one time, a dala dala conductor had to jump off for a while (I’m assuming he really had to go to pee). People started getting off left, right, and centre (probably those who hadn’t pay). The other passengers actually jumped out and stopped some of them, saying something to the extent that you haven’t paid! Then even asked the driver to come off and get money from these people. But no one seemed ashamed at anything. As an aside, I find that here sometimes, people would tell you that you just paid 12,000 instead of 15,000, when you are sure you paid 15,000. When you tell them you don’t owe them anything, they don’t have any small facial expression of shame (as I would imagine at home, anybody would) that you had just caught them trying to cheat you. I’m not sure if this only happens to foreigners…

– music is always on in a daladala. Most likely very loudly. Though apparently not as loud as in South Africa.

– most of the daladalas are imported Japanese used school/hospital mini-buses. Some Hong Kong minibuses too (very nostalgic if I run into one). There smaller dalas that look like the school buses I rode when I was in primary school in HK. I keep thinking one day I’ll actually see one with a HK school name painted on it.

not yet ready for grad school

I was trying to find something in my email and I came across this little gem…a heated exchange between my parents and I:

i am not going to masters immediately because
1) I have had enough of only studying, I need some real life experience to motivate me to study more.
2) I don’t really know which field within development I want to focus on. It would be useless of me to go do a masters without really knowing what I want
3) I can find jobs that I am satisfied with for now without doing a masters.
4) I know I will go back and do my masters because I like studying, just not now (I have been studying non-stop for 16 years!!!!!!!)
5) I need real life work experience for me to learn better in graduate school
6) most of the programs I have been looking at encourage people to work for a few years before going into their graduate programs.
7) times have changed since you were in school. people now routinely take a few years off before going back to graduate school
8) everyone who has worked in the field that I have met this year has said it was better to have a few years of work experience before going into graduate school
9) everyone has a graduate degree these days when they are finally going out to look for long term work. Having a graduate degree doesn’t make you stand out, having good work experience does.
10) i am still young and i want adventure. i want to travel and meet more people before I have more responsibilities
11) I have not really started looking at graduate schools. I have not talked to enough people to know which school is good for my field. And grad school usually starts in september, so the application deadline is in january. there is not enough time!!!
12) i want to enjoy my last few months at ubc without having to worry about all this. i want to do well in my classes, organize more activities and get to know more people
13) i don’t want to. i have a good feeling about taking one or two years off. most of my life i have followed my feelings and they have not yet disappointed me.
14) one or two years taken out of my education is nothing. it will help me gain much more than what i will lose. in fact, i cannot think of anything i will lose by starting graduate school one or two years later.

In solidarity with those whose parents love you but are pushy about getting “more educated.”

When being an incompetent facilitator is a good thing (maybe)

There were no fans. My head was pounding. My eye was tearing. Rapid-fire Kiswahili echoed in the room.

I was in a meeting today where I was supposed to be the facilitator. I was a bit sick and I felt it would be better if the flow of the meeting wasn’t interrupted as much with the translation of every sentence. So I asked the stakeholders to facilitate the meeting. Result: much boredom and more energy to dwell on my now raging headache.

Honestly, though, I’m glad. This network we’re trying to form has to come from their initiative. I’m just the facilitator. My job is to sit there and just jump in when needed. At least we got a lot discussed.

Unfortunately, I’m not really sure when I’m needed because of the language barrier. It’s so hard to facilitate a meeting in a different meeting culture in a completely different language.

Red eye

I’m sick with conjunctivitis*; first time sick since I’ve been on this continent. Darn, I can’t brag that I’ve never been sick here now.

Come to think about it, I’ve been remarkably sick-less these days. In Canada, I would have had at least two colds by now. I think it’s the stress. When you’re at school, all nighters are so common. Here, nothing would make me sleep less than I need, except maybe the occasional day where I have something at work I need to finish. (actually, I don’t usually get sick in summer in Canada…no school!)

I’m not that careful either. I tend to have this silly philosophy that if I slowly introduce potentially disease-inducing materials into my body a bit at a time, it would make me less susceptible to major sicknesses. Hence, I don’t carry around hand sanitizer (nor wash my hands with the really harsh soap that is usually provided; sometimes I think it’s probably worse to wash with that…I eat mostly with a spoon anyways). I occasionally drink tap water from home if I’m just lazy or there’s no bottled water. I don’t fret if muddy water splashes on me on the road. I eat street food all the time. In Canada, if things drop on the floor, I still eat it (most of the time). Yeah, gross, I know.

I went to see a doctor at CCBRT. My friend who lives upstairs works there. They have amazing doctors there, thank goodness. Plus, they run on a model where the rich patients subsidize the poor ones. I pay more and those who can’t afford don’t have to pay. Definitely something I can support.

But now I have fever-like symptoms of a headache and a sore throat. And a swollen and itchy eye. Doubly great since it’s almost the holidays…

*More commonly known as pink eye. Apparently, it’s called red eye here (just like in Cantonese).

4 months ago, I thought 6 months was really long. Now, 6 months seems way too short. I wish I knew what’s going to happen in 2 more months.

Epic trip – coming up!

I’ve got an awesome holiday plan coming up. I’m travelling overland to Harare, Zimbabwe to visit a friend. A Zimbabwean friend I met in Norway. (What a world, eh?)

I just got my train ticket on Saturday. I was so excited I literally skipped out of the TAZARA station (Tanzanian Zambian Railway Authority – funded and built by the Chinese; random Simplified Chinese writing in the station was very entertaining) with my second class sleeper ticket. I was in such a good mood in the overstuffed dala dala stuck in a traffic jam that I held a long conversation with the creepy “marry-me-now” conductor.

38 hours on the train from Dar es Salaam to New Kapiri Mposhi (small town in Zambia). 38 hours if there’re no delays. Actually I want a bit of a delay, because if it’s on time, I will pass through the Selous Game Reserve at night and won’t be able to see the animals. If the train is delayed for a few hours, I’ll be able to the go through the national park on a free safari!

I’ll arrive in Zambia, then I’ll probably have to take a bus to Lusaka, the capital, and then another bus to Harare. Maybe there’ll be buses straight to Harare from Kapiri Mposhi, but I doubt it. As I can’t predict how long the train can be delayed (according to stories, anywhere from an hour to a day), I have no idea what time of the day I’ll be arriving…

Either way, I think it takes about a day to bus down to Harare, where I’ll meet my friend! I’m so excited! Wah!

The downside? I have two weeks of holidays and at least 6 will be on transport (3 to go and 3 to come back. I’m coming back in the car of my supervisor, who’s also Zimbabwean). I won’t even get time to go to Victoria Falls which everyone tells me is beauty beyond this world.

But I can’t wait for this solo trip (although in reality, I’ll only be alone on the transport to Harare). I love travelling alone. And my feet are getting so itchy just thinking about it!

Chinese/Canadian

Sweat dripped from my nose. One arm crossed over my head, awkwardly grabbing the nearest pole. Toes gripping hard at the small piece of stair I fought to keep. Face centimetres away from the dala dala conductor, his breath on my cheek. Super overstuffed dala dala in a traffic jam; nothing new anymore.

“You teach me some Mchina language.” The conductor stroke up a conversation with me.

“Mimi sio Mchina. I don’t speak Chinese.” I automatically replied.

Before you bash me about not being proud of my roots, yadayadayada… I have to make a disclaimer – I’m equally super proud of being Chinese, being Canadian, and being pretty snarky and dismissive about these labels.

When I’m travelling I almost always say I’m Canadian, though. Why? For the shock effect. I love it when I see people getting confused as to why I look Asia yet say I’m Canadian. I love to, in a silly way maybe, dispel the myth that Canadian equals Caucasian.

Of course, once you get to know me, you’ll know just how “Chinese” I can be when I want to. And just how fast I can flip the “Canadian” switch. I see no contradiction and I see no need to define myself in either category.

A few months ago, I heard a presentation about cultural identities. Apparently the new trend is to say Chinese/Canadian instead of Chinese-Canadian. My Chinese-ness and Canadian-ness fluctuates depending on situations and moods. I’m not always half-half. I can be 99% Canadian and then 99% Chinese and everything in the middle. I like this new trend.

Apolitical blame

One of the groups of farmers we work with farm in a controversial area – the Msimbazi Valley. In the past few months, there’s been lots of media attention on the valley, mainly due to research findings (confirmed or not depends on who you ask) about the toxicity of the water and soil.

The Msimbazi Valley runs along the middle of Dar es Salaam. It’s huge, with estimates of hundreds of, maybe even a thousand, people who directly make their living from urban agriculture here. It’s also a politically charged space because a palm oil company (SUKITA), controlled by the CCM (political party that has been in power since independence), owns the valley land. But rampant corruption means that company officials have started selling individual parcels of land without legal land tenure. People have bought land, built their homes, and set up their farms (see aside below*). Yet, none of them actually own the land they have spent their lives’ fortune on.

Msimbazi Valley is downstream to many of the industrial factories. Hence, untreated toxic by-products and sewage pollute the river, which is the only source of irrigation water for the farmers. The valley also floods during rainy season, so even if the farmers don’t irrigate with the water, the water still contaminates the soil.

The recent media attention means that nobody wants to buy vegetables from the valley anymore. Understandably so. The area has been declared illegal for urban agriculture. Forced removals happen all the time. My former roommate saw farmers beaten by the police; when asked, nobody says anything. The head of the municipal Agriculture and Livestock Department has no sympathy whatsoever. Whenever we try to bring this issue up when working for demarcating land for urban agriculture, the answer is always a strict no. It’s also hard for my organization to advocate on the farmers’ behalf, as too much controversy would gain us more enemies and slow down the process of legitimization.

Yet, it seems like nobody (except the farmers themselves) recognizes the large white elephant in the room: the farmers aren’t the ones causing the pollution. They grow toxic vegetables because of unregulated factories and non-existent sewerage treatment facilities. They are unable to invest in soil remediation or boreholes for cleaner water because they were sold illegal land through corruption (who would put money in when you could be kicked off any day?). The real blame is the unwillingness of the government to force the actual polluters to pay. Keeping foreign-investment is obviously more important than backward rural activities that don’t belong in a city. Neither is the government willing to spend money to ensure safe disposal of sewage. Nor anger people of power who illegally sell land. No, the blame has to be put on the farmers – marginalized, poor, and politically voiceless. What a convenient, apolitical scapegoat.

And that is the problem I have with the way most of us are taught to think – it’s too apolitical. During my political ecology class, I was taught to always ask “for whom.” Such and such practice is beneficial…for whom? We should make this policy because it is good…for whom? We often forget that behind most actions, there are the beneficiaries and then there are those who lose out. By asking “for whom” it clarifies the seemingly apolitical recommendations we make.

One example that really struck home is the accepted notion that soil erosion is an evil that should be stopped. But is that a universal statement? Who benefits from stopping erosion? What about the farmer at the bottom of the valley? Erosion is when the fertile top soil from the top of the mountain slides down to the bottom. The farmer at the bottom of the valley actually stands to grow better crops because of erosion. Certainly, I’m not saying that erosion shouldn’t be stopped because it benefits some farmers; soil erosion destroys other parts of the ecosystem also. I’m just trying to demonstrate that many of the facts that we take for the truth actually have hidden “for whom” statements that can prod us to rethink our, often “scientific” or “unbiased,” recommendations.

*(aside: I always get frustrated when people don’t see farm land as a structure on the same level as a building. I get it all the time when town planners say that you can’t knock down buildings but can kick people off farms, even if they were both built without permission. Farmers are built. It takes a lot of work to build a farm. I’ll like to see you clear off the vegetation, pick out the rocks, till the land, plant, weed, and irrigate. All back breaking work. Sigh.)

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