Panic Mode Begins
by carlywen ~ February 27th, 2011. Filed under: Uncategorized.This time next week I will have completed my first triathlon. Holy crap.
I didn’t think that time would go by this quickly. I’ve actually started doubting myself. Did I train as hard as I could have? Am I actually ready to do this?
I went for a swim today at the UBC pool and I didn’t leave feeling confident. I couldn’t even keep track of how many lengths I was doing, I kept forgetting the number. All I could think about was TriDu. I got out of the pool earlier than I had wanted. It really is true about how races are just as much mental as they are physical. I think I’m self-sabotaging again. Uh oh. I just feel like I haven’t done as much as I should have and that I’m not ready for this at all. Ohhh! So THIS is cold feet! And I thought my feet were cold when biking…
Speaking of biking, there was no way I was going for my Sunday morning bike ride in today’s weather. There are very, very few things that I actually hate about Vancouver and slush is one of them. I’ll go out in the rain, I’ll go out in the snow, but when you mix the two together I’d rather hide inside.
Alright, I’m on a personal quest to think positively this week. There isn’t much I can do about training now. So what if I’m incredibly unconfident about my training… I’ll just think of it as setting the bar really low so that when I do my next triathlon I’m bound to improve! Yes, that’s what I’ll tell myself. What if I’m actually a natural born triathlete and just blow everyone away?? Yep, that must be it. I’m really hoping that adrenaline and endorphins kick in big time next Sunday.