When I searched up the word “truth” on the internet, definitions are always concerning facts and reality. However, the understanding of truth could be different for everyone and in different contexts. Sometimes, denying the truth may be unintentional.

In Disgrace, professor Lurie loses his reputation, his job, his dreams and the ability to protect his daughter Lucy due to his dissatisfaction towards his career and romantic relationship with his student Melanie. The discussion of truth has been a major theme in this book, where the author, J.M. Coetzee, has come up with his own meaning of truth in his essay “Confession and Double Thoughts” (1985). The author defines it through three aspects: the reality of the event under critical examination, the discovery of the truth through confessing and “unconscious truth,” where confessants think that they are telling the truth of a particular thing but is, however, exposing something different.

In the case of Melanie, where Lurie’s “disgrace” came from his seduction of a girl Melanie, who was one of his students, and committing to other actions which were regarded as rape. Lurie abuses his position as a university professor when facing Melanie. For instance, he falsified Melanie’s grades when she stopped attending his class. After a while when Lurie got dismissed from his teaching position, he feels guilty from his own behavior but refuses to validate the University’s version of truth as he believes that this will affect the effectiveness of his confession in public. In addition, he denies the fact that he raped Melanie. As it shows, the truth in this circumstance was always evident. However, it can be seen that people are unwilling to admit the truth when it comes to being something related to the crime to avoid punishment. This also relates to society, where robbers and other suspects do not admit their offense behavior in the first place unless being forced through violence or additional pressure.

Maus also portrays the idea of truth in another matter. Through Artie’s narrative, he strives to present to readers his understanding of his father Vladek’s experience as a Polish Jew and a Holocaust survivor.  Some scholars have criticized the graphic memoir arguing that the story is highly biased and is an inaccurate representation of the truth. It is true that Artie was not able to adequately represent the truthful story of his father since he also had struggles understanding his father at most times. In addition, the story told to Artie through his father might not be as accurate as well. As time passes by, the memory of Vladek may either disappear or be distorted. Thus, the version of the experience may be more distorted than what Artie’s father has truly come across. There is no doubt that the story illustrated by the author is an autobiographical narrative instead, which only shows readers the part where he understands. Consequently, the truth is often distorted through uncertainties in our memory and experience. Even though it is often unintentional in this case, the truth is often hidden where no one would be able to find.

In modern society, the truth has also been distorted and hidden. People are often being judged by controlling images and stereotypes. Such issues have also led to prejudice and discrimination for such group of people. For instance, ethnic minorities are often perceived as having lower academic and work abilities and believed never to be able to perform better than their candidates.

However, this is not the truth! What affects them the most is our biased perceptions of them. Our own construction of the reality led to internalized oppression and pressured them to perform self-fulfilling prophecy, which occurs when direct or indirect causes become true. In my opinion, this is the primary reason why ethnic minorities often perform less desirable in academics than their fellow classmates.

From my perspective, the definition of truth is often vague and controversial. Everyone has their own stories and their own opinions. However, does not share what we know a form of deception? Do we have to expose every part of ourselves to be a truthful person? I would say it’s still an unknown.

Works Cited:

Glass, Susannah Ketchum. “Witnessing the Witness: Narrative Slippage in Art Spiegelman’s Maus.” Life Writing, vol. 3, no. 2, 2006, pp. 3–24., doi:10.1080/10408340308518311.

Coetzee, J. M. Disgrace. Penguin Books, 2000.

Spiegelman, Art. The Complete Maus. Pantheon Books, 1997.

Poyner, Jane. J.M. Coetzee and the Paradox of Postcolonial Authorship. Taylor and Francis, 2016.

During the past few weeks, our class has been discussing and analyzing different literary works. One of them was a comic written by Art Spiegelman called MAUS. The graphic memoir portrays the author’s father Vladek’s experiences as a Holocaust survivor and a Polish Jew. Part I of the book focuses on Vladek’s struggle as a survivor. During the Holocaust, his identity as a Jew made his life harder and more miserable. Thus, I consider his survival as some sort of miracle.

In the past, people’s lives were overwhelmed by wars. Families were split up, and the survivors were left with nothing but the will to survive. Artie (Spiegelman)’s family was nearly annihilated during the Holocaust, and he feels that their suffering should be remembered.

This book reminds me of my grandfather’s experience. He experienced war in Taiwan and was one of the soldiers during the war. I remember him telling me that he ran from Taiwan to Hong Kong to escape from the chaos. His experience to him is memorable, and I also think that I have to duty to remember his story and tell my future kids. Even though there is no way I can relate to how hard life was in his past, but there is one thing I could do: be thankful that he is still living healthily and happily at this moment.

My mother’s experience as a child was not wonderful as well. Living in a small unit in Hong Kong back in those days with five younger siblings was never easy for her. Since she was the eldest, she also had the most responsibilities in the family. My mother had to take care of her siblings while studying, help out her family’s hawker business, and cook dinner for her family. I could still never imagine how tough and strong she was as a young lady. However, I often hurt her feelings when I couldn’t understand her experience as a kid. Whenever I told her how much I hated my life, she would tell me this story, and I would only reply her: time has changed, our condition now is different. In fact, I rejected to understand her and her strive to survive in such an under-developed society.

Of course, it is clear that survival issues still exist nowadays even though the cause might not be war. People who are disabled and diseased may find it hard to pass through each day. However, they still try their best from what they can do. Either through medication or assistance, they would still pay the effort to survive.

Recalling such stories and experiences sometimes make me feel ashamed of my past self. During a period in middle school, I often hated myself and felt like the world hated me as well. I often complained about why I was so chubby, why I was so useless and why was everyone so mean to me. However, I never appreciated what presents God has got me: a great family, the opportunity to do anything I want, and most important, the fact that I never had to worry about survival issues. Thankfully, my blaming self is now gone. Maybe growing up, being able to play volleyball and sing as well as encountering different experiences in life has helped me become a more positive person. I now finally understand that surviving in the past and present is not as easy for everyone. Indeed, the time has changed, but problems that threaten people’s survival still exist. One of the most known problems that threaten teenagers is education. With numerous workload and stress, some students would choose to commit suicide. Maybe it was because of their high self-expectations or their parent’s expectations that caused this.

As a student at UBC, I am really thankful. I would not have been able to study here and meet so many friends if my parents were not able to support me financially and mentally. Even though I still face stress and challenges as everyone else does in university, I will remind myself of the positive aspects of life and encourage myself to “stay strong no matter what.” This short quote applies to everyone, and I hope that all of my classmates would be happy even if they are facing some hard times at university.

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