This story is honestly more along the lines of what I was expecting based on the title than some of the others. It was also rather relatable in some ways, regarding trying to balance work, life, family, and more. The young mother tries to balance her role as an author with her own parenting obligation, notably only being able to do bursts of work sporadically rather than consistent, scheduled work. This is honestly very relatable, especially during busy work seasons or finals season, where trying to do sustained efforts on any personal projects feels like trying to swim upstream. Comparatively, the narrator presently lacks a family obligation at the moment, allowing her more flexibility to work and socialize.
That being said, it was kind of a confusing read at times. I hate non-linearly structured books, the shifts between time and perspective made me feel like I was in the text equivalent of being stuck in a washing machine. That being said, I think one could argue the confusion is intentional and represents the instability of the narrator’s experience and identity. I can appreciate the logic of it being there, but that doesn’t mean I have to enjoy reading through it because let me tell you, reading that at 11:30pm on a Saturday night after having worked since 8:30am is a new kind of fever dream.
I feel like the narrator is centered around the idea of freedom. There is a distinct contrast between the past and present of the narrator, she was once independent and lonely but also free, there was nothing keeping her tied. She flowed freely between people and places. In the present however, her whole life is defined by her domestic role, her ties to her husband and children. She is no longer free to flit from thing to thing and is constantly sidetracked with interruptions, no longer having time for herself. It’s interesting that when she was most free was when she was most lonely, and that despite being tied down, no longer able to dedicate time to writing, she is happier in many ways because she isn’t alone. It’s as though loneliness seeps into every aspect of your life and contaminates it.
The whole situation with her manuscript and her ‘relationship’ with Gilberto Owen is so interesting to me, especially once she creates the decoy novel due to her husband being a certified PoS(TM). I mean genuinely what was his problem anyway? Why are his two settings passive and useless, and asshole? Regardless, the way that she kind of shapes Owen’s life like he’s a character rather than a person is rather interesting, I mean he is quite literally her coping mechanism, especially as her marriage is falling apart. She literally fanfiction-ed his life.
Q: At what point do you think Owen is no longer a historical figure, but a true character in his own right within the book? Do you think he could feasibly be a ‘true’ character considering this is her interpretation and conclusions regarding his perceived life?
(P.S sorry for the late post (it’s like 2am… (:( ) ), life is a pain and a half!)