Categories
Uncategorized

Lullaby

I’ve been listening to this song by One Republic each night as I fall asleep: Lullaby.

—-

June 8

Homesickness hits unexpectedly, as I anticipated it. It feels like apathy, manifesting itself as indifference, carelessness, and even selfishness. Being as sentimental in nature as I am, it urges me to look through the photos of friends and family which I brought from home. It tires me out easily, and makes me susceptible to irritation at simple things like insects or heat. I am tempted to sit here, to wallow in it with my earphones on, blocking out the realities of this village.

There’re so many challenges to our project planning. There are a lot of people to accommodate, and it’s a different experience planning debate conference from Vancouver altogether. We are all intent on making our projects work, and all keen on learning as much as we can to stay afloat in this new culture. Sometimes, this means that we have to fend for ourselves when faced with homesick feelings or apprehension at new things we must overcome.

I think this will pass soon. I wish it will, because it’s kept me from reflecting as effectively as I know I can and should. I would like to go to bed and curl up and sleep.

6:30 PM

Presenting to the classes at the high schools in this region is always a challenge because there are so many students in each class. It’s really a test of my public speaking skills, as well as my confidence. It gets easier with each class, though, which is a relief. Today I visited the last of the schools to visit, totalling six. The biggest challenge in organizing the Reading Clubs and the inter- school events has definitely been to figure out how to delegate responsibilities. There are so many high school students to manage that it gets overwhelming to the point of being inefficient. But I’m glad that Hannali gave me good advice that allowed me to delegate accordingly and really believe in my own leadership decisions.

I think that the people here are as uncomfortable and afraid of me as I am of them. Why do we have this divide? What causes the discomfort? Misunderstanding? Language? Currency? Motivation? Upbringing? Intentions?

—-

June 11, 2011

I’ve realized, while experiencing homesickness, that I only need to feel comfortable with myself and with my environment for me to feel at home.

I also find it difficult to separate myself from yearnings that come with longing for home and the ‘luxuries’ which we so easily call our essentials. Sometimes I am most conflicted because I can see that villagers face the realities which cause me to yearn for home every single day, as they have and will for the rest of their lives.

Trees touch windows say their hellos
Hear this house as it settles in
Worry slips away it don’t know your name
It don’t know where to find us

Categories
Uncategorized

Kindergarten

(June 1)

It’s not fair that any of these children were born under these conditions. There are too many of them, and not enough resources, nor an efficient system, to serve them and/or train them into the best citizens that they can be for their country, their families, and themselves.

The little boy with the club foot, Josie, is just lying on the mat while the kids all play outside.

As each mother brings their child, they do it out of love for their kids’ well being.. but, as each new child is brought in to the kindergarten, it in turn jeopardizes their own chances of learning well because more and more children are brought in. The kids all end up just sitting there, not learning much. How do we overcome this problem??

Kindergarten.

The classroom became more of a daycare, as children kept arriving. At the most count, there were close to 50 children in that one small room. It was incredible to see all their little slippers outside the classroom. It was a sign to hear all the children sing the ‘Baby Jesus’ song to start off the class. I’m still figuring out what I think of the intricate tie between religion and education here.

Pretty soon, the sheer number of kids caused mayhem, and then we started to understand why teachers here use threats of punishment to control the students… it was impossible to manage all the interruptions as children cry, argue, tire, inquire, etc… Teaching in this cultural setting (i.e. having so many children in one room) requires a totally different set of skills than those used in our system back home. In N.A., teachers use particular sets of teaching styles, material, punishment, etc., to teach different grades. In that one room, there were children ranging from 3 years old to 7 years old. When a 3 year old started crying, the volunteer, Harriet, who was also our translator, called on his 8 year old sister to take care of him and stop his crying. How is that inductive to her learning at all? I’ve never seen an 8 year old called upon to care for her 3 year old little brother in a classroom setting.

Toward the end of our class, we were all exhausted. We wondered, how does the system here work?! What kind of system can accommodate for all these children and people and chaos? Step back, step back. Culture shock is all. We saw an older teenager, 18 years old or so, take the aforementioned 3 year old little guy, and their relationship was so comfortable and amazing that we began to appreciate the culture of the community… relationships between young and old and families are so important and so strong that somehow all the ‘chaos’ is manageable, and the community sustains its own system of learning and living.

Categories
Uncategorized

Poverty

Visiting families in their little hut houses always puts me in an awkward position. The Ugandans are extremely hospitable people, and so they always offer us with their best (and only) chairs. So we sit, perched on their nice chairs, while the elders and mothers of the household sit with their newborn babies, sometimes breast feeding them, sitting on the dusty ground with flies all around them. There are usually at least three other children in the house, who are either off fetching water from the water pumps, labourously biking them home, or are standing around in their tattered clothing watching us curiously. Almost all of the women we’ve visited don’t speak English, and we only know how to greet in Lunyole. So, we sit around, smiling encouragingly, trying not to come off as arrogant or ‘better’, while Grandpa Hirome or Ivan (our hosts) catch up with the families. It’s difficult not to feel self- conscious in those situations—I realize how privileged I am when visiting the households within the villages. Swatting away the few flies that bother me during the visit seems like such an obnoxious thing to do, compared to the conditions that the families have to live in daily…

It bothers me that whole countries of people live like this. How can these people stand such a way of life, for their whole lives? Where do they find the energy to get up each morning at 4 a.m. to work in their gardens, then to make food, then to work for the rest of the day in the fields while taking care of a newborn baby (women usually tie babies to their backs while working in the fields or fetching water on their heads). Where do they get the perseverance to follow this routine every day of their lives? How do they live without running water, clean drinking water, warm beds, mosquito nets, electricity, toilets, lights for the dark night?, and other things we take as bare essentials in the ‘developed’ world??

Is poverty a relative concept? Is it only in comparison to someone else that one can be wealthy or poor? These villagers may as well be homeless, in our understanding of poverty in Vancouver. But, there is something that sets them apart from the homeless and helpless in our Canadian communities—they do not feel the poor spirit. It is probably because that is all they know, and there’s not much luxury to aim for. To have a brick house, upgraded from their little straw huts, will be luxurious enough for a lifetime. Though, to see that the very basic human essentials: water, and food, so difficult to access for them, points to the fact that poverty isn’t just an abstract concept… it exists, and it’s painfully real. Is their poverty only in materials, or does it affect their spirit? I wonder what makes them happy. What keeps their little families so tightly bound? How do they feel their emotions? What contexts generate the different emotions?

I attended a political swearing- in ceremony for the district of Butaleja as an honourary guest (along with my housemates) as guests of Mr. Hirome (he is Grandpa to us). It was really conflicting for me to witness the pretentious proceedings as the ‘wealthy’ played their little political performance. I truly hope that they have intentions to serve the people of their district… they are so well off compared to the general public, the villagers whose homes we visited. It’s interesting to see how democracy here only slightly resembles democracy back home. Though I guess it’s fairly decent compared to many other districts, and especially other African countries. Most of these politicians are affiliated with either the Islamic faith, or the Christian faith. Both groups swore in on the name of Allah/ God, so I pray that they will stay true to their faith and personal conscience, and really try their best to serve their people with their best interests in mind.

Spam prevention powered by Akismet