Category Archives: Academic

What I Learned This Week

Faculty-bashing. What is up with that?

The stereotypes we’ve all heard: Arts is a useless degree. Commerce students are all stuck-up and pretentious. Engineers can’t write to save their lives. I won’t go on. This strange, knee-jerk need to associate ‘different’ with ‘dumb’.

Even though difference is how someone makes the music that someone else enjoys while spending long hours in the office at night, designing a building that someone else is going to construct for someone else to dispense the medication that someone else prescribed thanks to the education they got from someone else who cared enough to share — do you see what I’m saying yet? There is value in what each of us does; measuring the lack of value of what I do by the value of what you do misses the point completely.

Not to mention that we all know individuals who regularly defy these artificial categories we try to box them in: Arts kids who like maths (le gasp), Science kids who express themselves artistically, Commerce kids who have souls (no, really).

To be fair, most people I know don’t throw these stereotypes around. But every once in a while, I’ll meet someone new who will say, ‘So, what are you majoring in?’ and when I tell them, they give me that look which says, ‘Why on earth would you want to do that? You foolish person destined for destitution and failure.’ Which in turn quickly wraps up our very short acquaintance.

Something’s not right about that.

Something else that isn’t right: I just realised that despite my whinging, I rarely ask someone else what they’re learning — really ask. Granted, when chatting with friends, most of us don’t want to talk seriously about school out of class time, but I am still mildly horrified at how I’ve been bumbling along for the last four years without taking the opportunity to discover a wealth of learning in the form of my peers. All of us are busy getting an education and I don’t know what other people’s educations mean.

So I really want to know: What is one of the most interesting things you learned this past week? Why do you find it interesting and/or important?

One of the things that has been bugging me over the last few months is my growing realisation that while I take First Nations Studies classes that unpack all kinds of issues that indigenous peoples face, and while I feel immensely angry and frustrated while in class or doing my readings, at the end of the day, I can leave the classroom and these problems behind me, and an indigenous person can’t. What is academic fodder for me is someone else’s lived reality.

This raises deeply problematic questions for me, such as, What does it mean, then, to stand in solidarity with someone else if I can walk away? What are the ethics of me learning ‘about’ other people through an academic institution? What do I do with what I’ve learned instead of simply compartmentalising it as learning that I don’t do anything else with?

I don’t know the answers to any of these questions, though they are what I think about.

(I want to talk about my First Nations classes all the time, but this, too, is problematic for me, because the more I learn, the more I feel the weight of my ignorance, which fuels my anxiety of misrepresenting something incredibly important. There is so much background knowledge to explain, I don’t know how to do it, and then there’s also the question of whether I should be the one talking about it to begin with, and whether this is the appropriate avenue. See: questions raised above.)

On another note, What I Learned in Class Today is a project I discovered last year that discusses the difficulty of talking about aboriginal issues in UBC classrooms. The video is twenty minutes long, but well worth the time, I think.

Reading Week? What is this ‘reading’ you speak of?

Give Pause

Let’s see… in all the years I’ve been at UBC, what have I done with my Reading Breaks?

2008: Participated in the UBC Learning Exchange Reading Week Project, which I highly recommend doing at least once in your time here.

2009: Jet-set across Canada to visit my UofT friends. I think we actually did study together one day of that week, so that counts as having done my reading, no?

2010, AKA the two-week Olympics break: Flew to New York for the first week to visit my friend there and came back the second week with the intention of getting all my homework done, but not doing any of it at all. I think I was watching the Olympics and just lazing about. I really should have just stayed in New York that second week as well.

2011: Went skiing for the first weekend (which doesn’t really count as Reading Week), went to work for the first half of the week, and developed mysterious food allergies in the second half of the week. My hives were horrendous, and neither the doctor nor I have any clue what could be causing them, since I haven’t done or eaten anything new. Am currently on antihistamines that are the equivalent of sleeping pills, my friends tell me. I’ve been trying valiantly to do some of my readings, but I can’t honestly tell you how effective this is.

Lesson learned (all too late)? Just take a break from school and don’t give myself the extra guilt of ‘I should be doing reading’. Old habits die hard; it’ll never happen. Clearly the hives are Nature’s way of enforcing this ban on reading upon me.

(In other news, I just started a new blog keeping track of a whole other kind of reading.)

Lessons Learned in 2010

Sign: I wish that I could have been warned

Academic education aside, I’ve learned a lot about what not to do in this last half year by doing everything wrong — even the things I already knew were bad ideas. Apparently, I sometimes make the same mistakes just to remind myself why they’re mistakes in the first place.

So some advice to myself and to you for the rest of our university careers (and perhaps beyond):

1. Don’t do three part-time jobs while in school.

This is key. Full-time school and essentially full-time work do not mix. There are only so many hours in the day. Something has got to slide, as my schoolwork did slide in the month of September when I was busy burning myself out.

Oh yes, and I have volunteer commitments on top of all that. I tend to overestimate how much I can take on at a time — for some reason, I thought I could handle it for a few weeks, and I did, but continued to suffer for it in the long run.

2. Don’t get more than a week behind in school. (Two, if it’s an actual emergency.)

This guidelines applies if you’re aiming to do well in school or if you’re particularly struggling with a course. If you’re just aiming to pass and you’re not genuinely afraid of failure, then you’ll live.

It’s not to say that you can’t do well if you fall more than two weeks behind in school — just that it’ll be very, very difficult. If you’re a week behind, you can spend a couple of weekends playing some intense catch-up. A month behind, as I was at the end of September and two jobs, just meant playing exhausting catch-up for the rest of the term as readings continue and midterms and assignments pour in.

3. Most importantly, don’t ever give up food and sleep to ‘cope’. Seriously.

I can’t reiterate this (to myself) enough: sufficient sleep, nutrition and exercise are essential to managing life well.

Because I was rushing around so much, I had cereal in the mornings, sandwiches while commuting, and collapsed in my chair in the evenings with too little energy to make myself a decent meal, or even chew. Definitely not enough nutrition for what I needed to do.

Then I fell into the college trap of sleeping less in order to accomplish more. People are often telling me how little sleep they get, as a sign of how hard they work. Why not join the crowd of four-hours-a-nighters?

Because it doesn’t work for me and, I suspect, doesn’t work for others either. They just say it does.

Mid-October, there were days I literally could not get out of bed without being sick if I woke before my body wanted to. I spaced out and/or fell asleep in the most inopportune places. I missed classes and mixed up the timelines for my readings. Most depressingly of all, I was trying my hardest but my grades were telling me that I was still doing a whole grade lower than when I was getting food and sleep and not even trying all that hard at school.

It wasn’t until I made the conscious commitment to eat and sleep properly again (screw the grades) that I began functioning and doing better. Sleep and food are what saved my GPA from falling into the abyss this term, not quitting on them.

4. Don’t lose touch with the people and things that are important to you.

When you do badly physically and mentally, you can feel pretty badly about yourself. At times like these, you might feel like you don’t want to see anybody, or you feel guilty when you do things for pleasure because they’re ‘wasting’ time you could be using to catch up.

I gave up playing the piano, reading for pleasure, writing emails to long-distance friends, and hanging out with Vancouver ones because I ‘didn’t have the time’.

You have to make the time. Take short breaks doing things you care about to refresh your mind and spirit. Force yourself to get emotional support from your friends and family when you feel badly about yourself. You need them most when you want them least.

5. Don’t beat yourself up.

Understand that you are doing your best, no matter how much you dislike where you are at the moment. It’s easy for other people to tell you what you should do, but no one really knows the full extent of the problems you’re facing or how limited your resources for coping may be. Even comparing yourself to your past self can be counter-productive — you are not in the same place you were and can’t necessarily expect yourself to achieve the same that you used to (at least not right now). So don’t even think about comparing yourself to others. You will get through this if you give it time and keep up the effort. You just need to be kind to yourself.

Have faith that things will improve. Because, as I can tell myself now, they do.

I am not a happy chipmunk

(Why a chipmunk, you ask? I don’t know, only that it was the sentence running constantly through my head the other day when I was probably running a low fever. The sentence still stands as entirely accurate, however: I am not happy, nor am I a chipmunk.)

I dislike it when people tell me they are jealous of my exam schedule, because I will be done next Friday. If I only had two finals on Tuesday and Wednesday, then yes, I would be jealous too. However, I also have three research papers due on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and none of these are going well. My bout of whatever this lousy illness thing that knocked me out on Friday afternoon at 5 pm after a day of struggling to read and write one of these papers is not helping. I am almost entirely out of food in the fridge and also lacking energy and motivation to cook. This week is also my turn to clean the kitchen and living room. I haven’t done my laundry yet. I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve thought over the last few years that stress over school is not worth the sickness. My heart is sad and stressed because I feel so lousy, I’m sure to do badly and will pull down my grades and then not get into grad school, and now I’m overthinking and need to get back to my paper.

Rant done and promise there will be no more of this sort this year.

RSA Animate – Changing Education Paradigms

I mentioned watching Sir Ken Robinson’s TED talk a few weeks back, and now a friend has just sent me another talk he gave on changing education paradigms — this time, complete with pictures. I thought it was so cool, I had to share it with you:

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