Ok nothing matters really
because anything I write is totally mundane.
Decide for yourself
if it is worth travelling to the other side of this moon
to face me. I worn you though, beware, you will find
I’m a bone collector,
gathering the stories hidden deep within your veins,
I suck them out a long straw, draw all of the blood
from every inch of words you keep
on walls about to collapse,
my teeth ever hungry to dig
into the weight of your history and your dammed.
I weave around you
like Lucifer licking the meat from your brain
because mine is just too ordinary.
Bbbbbbut don’t be afraid
because nothing matters really,
anything I write is totally mundane.
And just when you think I’ve taken it all
I am simply diverted
by dried out bits
of dialogue with a character
who has no sense of the words
that float above the teleprompter
he has been placed in front of,
a Donald Trump type having a good hair day
I grab all his wireless fragments of frenzied messages
on Facebook to shove into the table of contents
of my next book of poetry
about a shooter with a semi
who walks into an airport
and the kid I support
who doesn’t know where his mother is.
But don’t worry because nothing matters really
everything I write is totally mundane,
stories become wild rice scattered
across a mine field where
the bones of the world are shattered
and I pick them like daisies to horde
for a stormy day
when the guy on the bus beside me smiles
because he has forgotten that he is hard of hearing
and the girl on his lap is listening
to his off key version of Bring Him Home
unaware that the bus driver just announced
he is taking a wrong turn
because he simply can
and we still don’t know if the kid I work with
has found his mother
and the tension rises and you want to cry
but I won’t let you
because come-on it’s just words
on a page that don’t signify anything
because everything is totally fucking mundane.
And it’s Friday night
and come to think about it
did we find the kid’s mother yet
his terror creeps between my toes
and I get itchy
wondering if I can make a difference
because we all have masks
just mine is solid, glued on so long ago
it has attracted rats around the edges
and the black iron cast frying pan
I use for noodles
has turned to brass and I wonder
if Robert Hass ever had any of these problems
did he lose his mom or words
and my words dddddon’t
count because the word count button is as broken
as a brain on fire
and I dance
and think Margaret Atwood
doesn’t dream like this
because she is not mundane.
Nnnnnnothing matters. It is all mundane.
A carrier pigeon to deliver bad news
has a broken wing and we found the mother
safe in Milwaukee on a runway in 40 below
and nothing I say matters
because a man with a gun turned into a maniac
and I sucked his bones dry too
and just because I can’t hold a bbbbb word in my head
for longer than a second or find the last word
I wanted to put on the page that was hiding behind
my desk draw full of the words I have lost
doesn’t mean his bullets will stop
and stay hidden because his brain
is a bit lost as well and nothing I say matters
because we are all mundane.