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Time of the Doves

Loss of Natalia

The pacing in the Time of the Doves was definitely different than other books I’ve been reading so far. At the beginning, nothing big seems to be happening. But as soon as you finish it, you realize, “wow, a whole life has really just passed”. I especially felt this at the beginning of the book. There was a short introduction to the characters, and then suddenly they were getting married.

Natalia is such a passive character. She doesn’t take actions or choose things for herself, but just lets them happen. I feel like she  wasn’t even fully convinced that she wanted to marry Quimet, but maybe that’s just me tho. I feel like a lot of people would agree that at times during the book, you wished to tell her to stand up for herself!! But at the same time, I feel like it was a pretty realistic view of what life can be like. How people just drift into where they are without a clear direction. And then the doves.. cute at first, but eventually become so overwhelming for her. They start making messes and taking over the whole apartment. I wanna say this ties back to what I said about the life Natalia didn’t really choose. Starting with the marriage with Quimet, then the children, the resposonsibilities and honestly just all the expectations people had of her. All these things start off pretty small and manageable. Where she has control, but as time goes on, it grows until they eventually “control her”.

On the other hand, we have the husband, Quimet ……. He starts off the book as pretty charming and confident, but as the story goes on, you can tell he’s pretty controlling and insecure. He starts telling Natalia what to do, and WHO SHE SHOULD BE?! without letting her figure this out by herself. He essentially even changed her name without her wanting it -> to Colometa. I feel like the name is a symbol of how he’s claiming ownership over her own identity. She starts to slowly stop being “Natalia”.

I also found the part about the Spanish Civil War pretty interesting. I’ll be honest, I usually find that books about war bore me. They usually read like a history book or textbook, but that wasn’t the case for this book. You just feel the effects of the war through her thoughts and actions. How her life gets scarier and more confusing. This made it better than if the author just described the specific battles or political outcomes of the war.

Overall, a pretty good read. Didn’t have me having to go back and re-read things, which is always a good thing. The book was pretty interesting too.

Question for the book: Do you think Natalia changes over the timeline of the novel, or is the environment around her changing until she is forced to adapt?

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Black Shack Alley

Identity in Black Shack Alley

While I was reading Black Shack Alley, I honestly thought this was going to be another cliche novel where a poor kid goes to school, works hard, and has a good life. END OF STORY. But as I kept reading and after I watched the lecture, I realized the author wasn’t really focusing on the education or development aspect to be the main outcome of the story at all. It was also interesting when we really look at the value education has on his life. Jose finds that, to have a shot at having a good life, he needs to go to school. But going to said school pulls him farther and farther away from his own community. There’s even a part in the book where he isn’t able to explain what his grandmother’s line of work is in French.  This says a lot, without explicitly saying anything. I feel like the system undermines not only her as a person, but also the blood, sweat, and tears she put into making his education a possibility. His identity also seems to be getting shifted away from his roots. Rather than learning new and exciting things, he’s being reshaped into a new order of structure that doesn’t recognize where he comes from. The lecture further brings this point home when the professor goes into literacy vs orality. We know that Black Shack Alley has it’s own culture. It’s own people, music, stories, and wisdom passed down. But when he starts reading, he realizes that these books are fully disconnected from his own reality. Full of white people and settings. He even gets accused of plagarizing because this life seems so alien to them. Oh, and another thing that stuck out to me was the emotional weight I felt when the book went into talking about how his mother was working so much to support his education, and how disappointed she felt when his first report card was full of mediocre grades. I feel like many people can relate to this, especially asians, where their parents were first-generation immigrants to North America. They left their stable jobs in their home country to come here and work hard just for a chance that their kids would be able to have a good life and education. Most kids would probably think that “it’s just grades” and “it’s honestly not that big of a deal” but its more than that. To Jose’s mother, they represented whether all of her effort, exhaustion, and sacrifice were actually worth it. In the same way, for immigrant parents, grades aren’t just grades but proof whether if their struggles mean something. Those are just my thoughts though. The question I had this week was: How do his mother and grandmother’s sacrifices change how we see his education?

 

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Alberto Moravia

Feeling stuck :(

This, by far has been the easiest read I’ve done so far. I know it’s probably because it’s an easier book but I’m going to tell myself that I’m improving my reading attention span. I was able to finish this book in 3 short sessions which is a big win. The book was quite straightforward and the storyline was very easy to follow. I believe this ties to what the lecture said about the book deliberately being shorter and how the author focused on a very small window of his life. Instead of bombarding the reader with multiple characters and story tangents, he tries to explain the plot without a lot of distraction.

While I was reading the book, I was honestly waiting for something big to happen. Along the lines of maybe him growing up and going through a big learning opportunity, but no. In fact, the book kind of just ended without resolving anything. I guess this was the point of the author. For us to see how he feels unable to move on.

The big focus of the book was on the relationship between Agostino and his mother. Even from the beginning, things were kind of weird. Agostino liked how people stared at his mother’s beauty, and he even felt proud when people envied him for having such a beautiful mom. (It sounds even more weird after typing that out). But once she attracts the attention of a young guy on the beach, he is pushed out of the once intimate space he had with her. Having an absent father, it is easy to analyze his jealous gaze through the Oedipus complex. The lecture mentioned that a part of becoming an adult is detaching from the mother and redirecting your desire to something or someone else, BUT Agostino fails at this. Even when he went to the brothel with Tortima, he got so close yet wasn’t able to go inside. He just had to stand outside watching through a window. This again shows that he was close to entering adulthood, close to finding his own sexuality, but he got stuck outside. Forced to watch instead of experiencing.

By the end, Agostino was still stuck. Which felt relatable since growing up isn’t a smooth and linear transition. It’s full of surprises and obstacles you have to overcome, which is what I feel the author was also trying to convey. -> Overall, a nice read.

The question I have for this week is: Why do you personally think that the author ended the book without a clear resolution?

 

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