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Rodoreda

Time of The Doves – Rodoreda

The Time of the Doves follows the life of Natalia, an ordinary working-class woman in Barcelona whose personal story unfolds alongside the Spanish Civil War and its aftermath. The novel traces her journey from a passive young girl at a festival to her journey through motherhood and marriage, and finally to a widow struggling to survive poverty and hunger amidst war. Through this novel, we see war through the lens of those most affected by it.

I think Quimet’s renaming of Natalia as ‘Colometa’ is one of the first moments where she loses control over her own identity. He laughs when she insists her name is Natalia. That moment stuck with me because it feels small, yet it sets the tone for everything that follows. From then on, her old life and identity begin to fade. Her life now revolves around Quimet and only his wants and needs. Following this, Quimet’s doves are an extension of his dominance over Natalia. They multiply uncontrollably, invade her apartment, and force her into endless cleaning. Just like Quimet’s authority, they take up space that was never freely given to them.

I also think the connection between the doves and motherhood is really complex. Natalia is constantly associated with reproduction—first through the doves breeding endlessly, then through her own pregnancies. Both feel less like choices and more like obligations forced upon her by Quimet. The apartment becomes overcrowded with children and birds, and she is the one left to manage all of it. In that sense, the doves reflect a distorted version of femininity: nurturing, cleaning, and enduring. But when she finally kills the pigeons, I saw it as her first real act of rebellion. She destroys what has been symbolically suffocating her.

“When they were sleeping I’d stick the funnel in their mouths, first one and then the other, and pour the acid into them and then pour it into myself and that way we’d put an end to it all and everyone would be happy since we wouldn’t have done anybody any harm and no one loved us.” (pg. 146)

I sympathize a lot with Natalia here. In fact, I don’t see her actions as cruelty; I think it symbolizes her absolute breaking point as a woman who has been stripped of agency for years. She ends up buying the acid, yet she can’t bring herself to go through with it. I think that this hesitation matters more than the act itself. It suggests that despite everything, there is still something within her that cannot be destroyed. Some instinct, some quiet resilience, remains intact. I like to think that inside her, beneath the exhaustion and trauma, there is still a trace of the young girl who once stood in the Placa del Diamant before her old life was stripped away from her. She is not entirely gone.

My discussion question for the week is: Do you think Natalia’s suffering was primarily caused by war, by the patriarchy, or by economic inequality? Or are these forces inseparable?

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Zobel

Thoughts on Black Shack Alley

 

Black Shack Alley follows author José growing up in 1930s Martinique. The story is split into three parts, and each part follows José in a different stage of his childhood, in a different place.

First of all, I really loved José’s grandma’s character in the book.  I like how she’s portrayed as kind of like a ‘tiger parent’ (we Asian kids can relate), but still cares deeply she cares for him. She doesn’t express her love through gifts or affection, but as a reader, you can tell just how much she cares for him through her actions. She wakes up early, goes to the cane fields, comes home exhausted, yet still manages to feed him, keep him clean, even though they have almost nothing. It’s easy to read her strictness as cruelty at first, but the more the story goes on, the clearer it becomes that she’s fighting for him with everything she has. It is because of her actions that José gets access to something that could actually change his future. I think that’s what makes their relationship so moving and relatable. It isn’t warm and sweet in a conventional way, but it’s real, and many of us can relate to this.

Another thing this book does well is showing the struggles of not just obtaining an education, but life afterwards as well. Jose’s life doesn’t just magically get easier after he leaves the plantation. Fort-de-France is a different setting from Black Shack Alley, but little changes about his financial situation. His mother still has to fight for every basic necessity. If anything, the lycée makes him even more aware of where he stands amongst his peers. He’s surrounded by wealthier, lighter-skinned students who seem like they belong there without trying, all the while he’s constantly conscious of his clothes, his background, and the fact that he’s out of place there.

Overall, Black Shack Alley reminds readers just how easy it is to treat education like something guaranteed. When in reality, it’s a privilege to even be able to read and write, let alone be able to attend university. Jose’s story shows how hard it is to even reach ‘the starting line’ when you’re dealing with issues like poverty, racism, and a system that’s built to keep certain people behind. Nothing is handed to him in life. I think it made me appreciate how much access to education can shape someone’s life, and how many people have had to fight for what others just get automatically.

Discussion question for the week: Who do you think ‘benefits’ more from José’s education in the story: José himself, or the people around him who invest everything in him?

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Agostino Moravia

Growing Up is Actually Horrible – Agostino

Agostino was a short read, but one that leaves a lot to think about. I think it’s more than your usual coming-of-age story. It’s one of those reads where the writing coaxes you to keep going even though you’re lowkey really weirded out. It actually reminded me a lot of Proust, in the sense that a lot of the emotional tension going on circles back to the mother figure in both of these books.

To start, I would argue that Agostino’s relationship with his mother was definitely not normal. You can sort of feel it right from the beginning. His willingness to show her off stems more from his innocent love and admiration for her. He clearly loves her dearly and refers to her as “his mother”. However, pretty quickly, the narration shifts and she becomes “the mother,” and at one point Agostino reduces her even further to “just a woman”.

“She’s a woman, nothing more than a woman” (pg. 44)

Even when he still loves her, the attachment feels obsessive in a way that isn’t normal for a regular mother-son relationship.

Once that private world with his mother starts falling apart, his developing relationships with the others become more central. This is where the gang of boys comes in. Despite their verbal (and physical) mistreatment of him, Agostino finds himself going back to them again and again. He wants their approval. He wants to understand what they understand. And he doesn’t really have anyone else to turn to because his mother is distracted (looking at you, Renzo) and emotionally unavailable. In fact, the book captures something very real and raw about puberty. Your feelings get unexplainably intense, and suddenly, the people around you have way more influence than they used to.

And it’s not just puberty that causes Agostino to think and act the way that he does. The moment he meets Berto and the gang, we’re suddenly reminded that Agostino is no normal boy—he’s rich. He’s sheltered in a way that shows in everything, in how he talks, what he knows, what he’s embarrassed by, what shocks him. The other boys understand sex, money, and power in a blunt way because they’ve been around it. When the boys mock his wealth and ask about his house and his lifestyle, it’s a reminder that he’s been protected from reality all this time. Perhaps that is why their approval matters so much to him. It’s not only about friendship, but it’s also about trying to catch up to a world he suddenly realizes he knows nothing about.

Overall, I found Agostino a pretty straightforward read. My discussion question for the week would be: Do you think Agostino actually wants to grow up, or does he just want to stop feeling left out and powerless?

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