I measure the moments in my life that take my breathe away or make me just stop by music.
I don’t know why, but my feelings get attached to songs. I get obsessed with songs. The rhythm, the words, the feeling, the poetry… it all holds something special for me.
Today, while stumbling through stumbleupon I stumbled upon this .
Suzanne by Leonard Cohen.
In all honesty, this song makes me feel more than I can really describe. It takes me breathe away. I can get lost so easy in the words and the rhythm and the story. For me, this song signified a beginning of how I would spend my spring and summer in my last semester of highschool; that period of my life was one of huge change. I started to really define who I was (in the, I-will-never-fully-finish-the-defnition-until-I-stop-living-kind-of-way-because-we-always-change).
This song brings back so many memories; more than any yearbook or goodbye grad class 2010 speech can.
When I listen to this song, I can feel the warm Dawson summer nights driving home from Lael’s house after watching a movie with our friends. The windows down. The sky indigo. Bright stars. And the sun always on the horizon because it never fully sets in the summer. I can remember the smell, the smell of just before it rains. Everything was still and everything was perfect. In my life, I have felt a lot of joy and utter happiness… but that feeling I had that night driving back, I have never felt such careless, fearless, reckless abandon. It was just one of those moments in my life where I knew peace and it didn’t matter who I was or where I was going or how I got there. All that mattered was that place, the feeling and that moment.
I think we should all have these moments: these moments of complete peace. I don’t think we can all get there the same way, but just that moment where the world stops in the midst of everyday life and everything just makes sense even for a brief moment keep us sane. Those moments remind me that it will all, always be alright. And even in the middle of life, time can stop.
After all, time is a human invention really the sun never sets or rises. If we make time, then for just a single moment of our lives, our busy, crazy, hectic lives, it should stop. And let us breathe.
xo. Sam.