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Academic Personal

Last exam turned out to be easier than coming up with a metaphor for how easy an exam is.  The late night study session helped, though.  It’s always good to be certain you have all of the answers.

I went to sleep, got up around 6, had dinner with Sam, and then we napped again until midnight.  I’ve got less than eight hours before I’m on my way back to Toronto.

This whole term went far, far better than last year’s.  Looking at some of my grades that came back, I can’t say I’m happy with my average, but if I keep working hard for the next two and a half years, the three failed courses of last year won’t even touch me.

It was a little stressful this term, since in last year’s first term I was taking something like 25 credits, and this time I was taking 33, but at least I didn’t have to deal with any economics courses this time around.

It’s snowing really hard right now, I’m almost worried my flight will be delayed.  I’m not even sure how long it’ll take to get a cab over here.  I haven’t even packed yet.

I’m really quite terrible when it comes to travel.

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Academic Personal

Lots more studying ahead of me tonight.  As I predicted, I slept pretty late, so I won’t be very tired by the time my final comes around.

I know this isn’t the best way to approach an exam.  If this wasn’t my last one I wouldn’t even be considering this, but the risk of being a little tired after staying up all night isn’t quite as large to me as the risk of sleeping through my exam, which is quite likely.  I haven’t even woken up before 8:30 this term, and I’m not too good at rearranging my sleep clock on a whim.

I know, I can’t expect to have any employment opportunities in my future that are sympathetic to an inability to wake up before ten in the morning.  I’ve heard it all before.

Oh, well.  Back to studies.

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Academic Personal

This is not a title.

Today marks the end of my totally uncommitted time.  I’m going to spend most of Monday studying for epistemology.

As I’ve said before, it’s not that I’m anywhere near bad at epistemology, it’s one of my better subjects, but lately I’ve felt like I’m not studying hard enough.  Sure, there are a lot of subjects I can get through without really trying, but just because something is easy doesn’t mean you can’t still get results from working hard at it.

I think because my dad made me feel obligated to go to university I didn’t really take my education seriously last year.  It was the same in high school.

I think I’ve written about this before, but I had a lot of problems with high school, both social and academic, and after getting expelled from my first high school, I kind of moved in and out of the whole school system until finally my parents let me just drop the whole thing for awhile.  My official story at the time was that I was doing my courses through correspondence, but I was as poorly committed to that as I was to the regular high school system.  So I spent something like six months doing absolutely nothing.  I sat in the attic of my mom’s house playing video games and exercising.  The only times I ever went outside were wednesdays, when I had breakfast with my father (my parents are divorced) and then saw my psychotherapist.

I won’t deny that I was a textbook example of a loser at the time.  But spending six months out of high school was probably the best thing that happened to me.  I mean, up until then, I despised school.  It was something forced upon me since before I had long-term memory, and the way it was always presented to me is “Here are a bunch of people who aren’t your family, don’t love you like your family, don’t give you food or shelter like your family, but they have absolute authority over you.”

In spite of having a pretty screwed up family, I think I have pretty strong family values.  I do what my parents ask because I know they have my best interests as their main priority.  If my parents were ever to hurt me, I know it would be as a result of some kind of misunderstanding.  The authority represented in teachers never gave me this impression, especially since at least two thirds of my Ontario public school teachers, simultaneously bloated with arrogance over the almighty power of their workers’ union and burning with rage over Mike Harris’ conservative government, were concerned more with their paychecks and pensions than the growth of their students.  I always felt pushed aside in school, and the “authority” given by teachers seemed to serve only to assist them in pushing me aside.

Anyway, I didn’t like being forced to be in school, so once returning to high school was my own decision, it put me in a distinctly different position: If I did poorly, I was no longer making statements about my own objections to being forced into jumping through hoops by random authority figures, I was simply hindering my own personal goals.  My grades improved drastically just from this.

I remember what I thought at that time in my life, when I was sixteen years old, and I only had something like six high school credits out of a necessary thirty to graduate.  I recalled my middle school’s principal in eighth grade coming in to make a speech about what highschool was like.  He would repeat this phrase “sixteen credits by sixteen years of age:  If you have not accomplished this goal, you are more than fifty percent likelier to drop out of high school” followed by a long speech about how people without high school diplomas in Canada can’t even get jobs at MacDonald’s.  According to my principal, then, I was not only doomed to fail high school, but I was destined to be begging on the streets for money in ten years.  I hated that principal.

Not that I hate all teachers and principals from my past.  Without the support of the principal of my last high school, I wouldn’t be here, and certainly not this soon if at all.

In any case, I’m remembering this at the end of this term with the determination to take the rest of my time here at UBC more seriously.  I don’t need six months away from here to learn the same lesson all over again.

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Academic Recreation

Well, the day of studying paid off.  I’m pretty confident that I did passably well on my exam.

I’d just like to say that the professor who teaches ANTH227, Dr. Vinay Kamat, is an amazing professor.  Even on the day of the exam you could tell how much he cares about his students and wants them to succeed.  The kind of individual attention and concern he was capable of giving to a class of nearly 100 students was almost superhuman.  And even though the material is slightly difficult and the readings are long and rather hard, he’s said several times that he has never failed a single student.  And when he says that, after seeing his quality of teaching, I can say with certainty that it’s not because the course is easy, but because he’s that good a prof.  I’d reccomend the course to anybody if only to experience the quality of teaching he brings.

All I have left is my epistemology exam now, and that’s in a week.  I think I’m already well versed enough in the material to write the exam, so I think I’ll probably only need a day or two to study for it.  That leaves me with a significant amount of free time, and I’m not sure what I’ll be doing with it.

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Tomorrow is my exam for Medical Anthropology.  This is the only exam I’m really worried about this term…  Philosophy and anthropology have stopped acting the same way for quite some time, so I’m pretty confused when reading most of the material.  I’m going to just have to force as much knowledge on the subject into my mind as possible and hope it stays there well enough for me to think critically with it.

I really wish I were better at this subject, to be honest.  It’s a really interesting field, and one that I think doesn’t get quite enough attention.  I was always kind of arrogant with regards to traditional healing and holistic medicine before I took this, and I always just considered them to be liars and swindlers who took money from people who feared death.  But when western medicine is put under scrutiny, it’s effectiveness in combating illness isn’t really good enough justification for considering it the only medical practice to take into consideration.  That’s really only one of the interesting things in the course, but it struck me more than a lot of the other things.

My classes for mondays, wednesdays and fridays were always kind of odd.  It went Existentialism, medical anthropology, then ethics.  So I go from abstract and subjective focus on the human mind to objective, neutral, cultural relativism to theories of universal morality.  It’s like doing yoga with my value system.

But yeah.  That is honestly all I have been doing today.  Fortunately, my epistemology exam doesn’t worry me anywhere near as much, so this is really my last trial of the term.

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Academic Personal ResidenceLife

Today I handed in the last of my papers for this term.  That’s one major thing I don’t have to worry about now.

This term went by a lot faster than last year’s.  I suppose a lot of that is because I know what to expect.  But still, it feels odd to me that I’ll be going home again already in just a little over a week.  I miss my family, but I think it was better for me to get away from them.  Still, it’ll be nice to be back in Toronto.  Even though I’ve been in Vancouver for a while now, I don’t quite feel like I know this city, at least not like I know Toronto.  I can’t say with conviction that I know where to get the best hamburgers here.

I’m also going to be happy to be using Toronto’s public transit system again.  Vancouver’s is just horrible in comparison.  The bus drivers here are much friendlier, but the actual bus routes in Vancouver are all so winding and random.  Toronto’s transit systems are just so organized and euclidean.  None of this “Take the #15 bus to the #4 station and then take the #78 two stops until you see a giant tree, and then wait for the #58 and take it until it makes a right turn” crap.  Seriously, sometimes I feel like I’m in London.

It’ll be nice to see my cats as well.  The problem with living in rez is that the only pet I’m allowed to have is a fish.  I’ve got nothing against Ferdinand, but you can only have so much emotional attachment to a fish.

I suppose it’s silly to reflect like this now, though, since I’m going to be back in Vancouver just a few weeks later, and I’m going to have to come to terms with making this city my home.  I’m not going back to Toronto next summer like I did the last, so my permanent residence is here.

Nothing wrong with that.  It’s a beautiful city, and I’ve almost completely forgotten what it’s like to have crappy Ontario weather.

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Academic Food

Well, today turned out to be a really relaxed day.  I’ve got another week before I have another exam so I can just take it easy and study at a nice pace.

Since living at Totem Park, I’ve learned to appreciate having an oven.  Back home in Toronto, the oven is probably the nicest thing in my house.  It’s run on gas and really large, great for baking and making things like roasts.  The oven I have here in Fairview isn’t quite so nice, but it’s still nice to have an oven at all.  I’ve taken up making bread lately to get more use out of the oven.  My kneading technique is a little off but things usually turn out fine.  Last week I made a whole wheat loaf with fried onions and asiago cheese, and it was probably the best tasting thing I made so far.  Currently I’m making bread rolls with a combination of whole wheat, white flour and mashed potatoes, the dough for which is rising as I type this.  I’m hoping this will turn out well, as the remaining mashed potatoes were delicious.  For anybody who loves mashed potatoes, I reccomend always using sea salt instead of table salt.  When salt is providing the main source of flavor in a dish, sea salt always works better.

Baking bread always feels satisfying, just because I produce something.  Since I was young, the whole problem with being a student has been I always feel like I accomplish nothing.  Good grades mean a lot for you personally, but at the end of the day it’s just an evaluation, and the act of learning itself never seems like an accomplishment to me as learning has always been easy for me.  But something that requires skill, patience, and good adherence to proper guidelines, and produces something that both I and my friends enjoy always brings me a pleasure that nothing in the actual act of school has ever given me.

I guess most people have skills that bring them satisfaction like that before they’re twenty years old, but at least I’m getting somewhere.

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Academic Dell is awful

First attack!

Okay, so I failed already.  But two hours late isn’t bad at all.

So today was my first exam of 3, and I have a pretty good feeling about my performance.  A lot of people let themselves get really stressed around exam times, and I understand it, because I’m one of the most stressed out people in the world, and I crack under pressure pretty easily.  But exams aren’t that big a deal for me because I’ve made myself less concerned with the consequences.  People are worried in their finals because they’re afraid of the penalty they’ll get to their grade if they do poorly, but I’ve made peace with the idea that if I relax, study as well as I can, and then just go do my best I can be happy with whatever mark I get.  Fortunately, the fact that I’m not always stressed out means I perform better, and thus I have less to worry about.  With regards to exams, anyway.

Dell still continues to incur my wrath.  They called Sam today (or yesterday, I suppose) to tell me to pick up my empty box in Richmond.  Well, first they asked if “Claws got his package delivered to him” which is a strange question to ask since they never actually made any kind of delivery attempt.  My current stance on this is that if they’re going to be this irresponsible with an empty box, I’ll be damned if I’ll entrust them with anything of monetary value to me.  Dell offends me so much.  The very fact that a corporation with such horrible service is allowed economic prosperity is practically a valid critique of the free market on its own.

But I ought not to get upset before I go to sleep.  Tommorrow promises to be a rather relaxing day.

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Academic Dell is awful

Dell is not the #1 choice of students. Or anybody in the known universe.

So one may recall yesterday I was infuriated with Dell and their expensive, low-quality warranty as well as their generally shoddy products that they have no problem selling to you even though they’re aware of known flaws.

Did I mention that?  Apparently my computer’s problem is completely in my AC adapter, and it’s a rather common problem.  So common, in fact, that Dell ordered a recall of their AC adapters almost six months before I even owned this computer due to a problem that, as near as I can tell, is completely identical to mine.  And yet they had no problem selling me a power adapter that had this exact problem, and even with the knowledge that these computers are known for faulty AC adapters, they refuse to replace my adapter unless I send my entire laptop in for inspection.

Oh, about that inspection.  As I mentioned before, I have to mail my computer to Dell.  More accurately, they assured me they would deliver me a box which I would place my computer in, mail to them, and then wait for them to send back.  It’s somehwat inconvenient because that means I would have to surrender my computer to Dell right around exam season which I can assure you is a terrible idea, and odds are they wouldn’t send it back to me until somewhere after December 17th, at which point I would be in Toronto with my family.

Well, the problem got a little worse.  Today I received a phone message from some delivery service I had never heard of in Richmond.  RICHMOND.  He told me he had a package for me from Dell which he would hold for five days before throwing out.  He warned me that I would expect to have to provide photo ID in order to get this package.  Furthermore, the message was for a “Mr. Claws Marks.”  Now, I’m pretty used to people being unable to pronounce my first name, which is why I go by Max.  “Claws” is probably the most  common mispronunciation thanks to a certain overweight bearded flying man in red who breaks into our homes around this time of the year who bears this very name which was repeatedly mispronounced by Americans.  However, it wasn’t just a mispronunciation.  I received an e-mail from Dell addressed to a “Mr CLAWS MARKS.”  Spelled out in text.  So I am to believe that Dell is certain that after hearing me on the phone as “Klaus Marks” (and the phone is the only place I gave them my name) they became certain that my name is “Claws” and not even like the ruddy obese gentleman I mentioned before.  Apparently my parents had the imagination to name me after the natural weaponry of beasts.

In any case, I have no guarantees that my photo I.D. which by no certain means reads “Claws Marks” anywhere on it, will prove sufficient to the impatient man in Richmond who wants to throw out my empty box.

So here’s a recap:  Dell sold me a shoddy product, and when I asked them to replace it while my warranty was still valid, they told me they would send me a box to send them my computer.  I give them my address, but apparently all they wanted to know was what province I lived in because they thought that any random place in Richmond with a strong desire to throw out what they are holding would be good enough no matter where in British Columbia I lived.  Provided I am willing to make a two hour bus ride to Richmond to pick up an empty box, I may not even get this box because of an error on the part of Dell’s Tech support to comprehend that “Claws” does not rhyme with “House”

What makes this more annoying is that even if I do go down to Richmond and get this box, I don’t think I want to use it, because the last thing I want is to be sitting at my mom’s dinner table in Toronto and getting a message from some random delivery service in Burnaby telling me to come by within the next week or they’ll send my newly inspected laptop to the local technological crushery.

So long story short, I’m deciding to just buy a new power cord, because even if Dell didn’t have an entire bureaucracy devoted to ensuring that they never have to provide adequate service to wronged customers, I’m beginning to believe that even if Dell’s customer service division was actually willing to set things right for me, they actually lack the competence required to fix my problem.  I imagine if Dell just apologized and agreed to send me a new power cord, they’d just send me another broken one.  Or one that doesn’t fit in the computer.  Or perhaps they’ll just send me a large sturgeon with a happy face pinned to it and then assure me I got the right product.

Unfortunately, my short route of buying a new power cord is even problematic.  I’m going to have to break my oath to never give money to Dell again, because according to the tecchies at Staples, while they can provide a working AC power adapter for my computer, none of them will actually plug in to my computer because only Dell produces power cords that fit into Dell computers.  This explains why I could never borrow a power cord from a friend when my computer was running out of juice.   If I want a working power cord, I will have to buy it from Dell.  This means there’s a 90% chance it will be broken upon purchase.  However, I will have to purchase two power cords before it will cost less than a one year warranty extension.

In short, I despise Dell.

Also, I have my first exam tomorrow.  I’m pretty confident in this subject, though, so my rage at Dell burns brighter than any pre-exam anxiety I might have.

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Academic Housing Personal

Back just in time for the end of the term

Well, I certainly haven’t been keeping enough attention focused here.  A combination of schoolwork, a computer constantly on the verge of breaking, and some existential crises got in my way.  I learned some valuable lessons this term, but the most valuable is probably to never buy anything from Dell.

I’m sure most of you are thinking that’s a lesson I should have learned years ago.  I can only wholeheartedly agree.

Fun fact about Dell computers:  For the price of four years warranty from Dell, you could just buy another computer.  And for the price of calling Dell’s tech support line without warranty twenty times, you could buy a better computer.

To make a long story short, my computer won’t charge due to a flaw in either the power aqdapter, my motherboard or both, and as a result Windows Vista assures me that it will do everything it can to remind me every second of my writing term papers that Dell sold me a faulty product.  Their tech support company is requiring me to mail my computer somewhere so they can fix it.  The mailing time may go past my warranty and I have no guarantees they’re not going to decide to bill me for anything they do with my computer past the date of December 6th.

Unfortunate.  On the other hand, this has been a very productive term.  My first year in Coordinated Arts PPE was clearly a mistake; I have no talent for economics.  However, now that I’ve switched most of my classes to philosophy I’m enjoying myself a lot more.  I ridicule the future job prospects of being a philosophy major a lot, but the discipline really is my passion, so I have to cut it more slack.  I mean, when I first learned what philosophy was when I was way younger, I remember thinking how perfect a thing that is to do with your time.  Everything else seems kind of worthless in comparison.

Lately, though, I’ve had my frustrations with philosophy.  I think a big part of it is that I take the subject matter a lot more seriously than most students do.  Lately I’ve been stuck in constant indecision over trying to figure out why one action is preferable to another, and the lack of answers with regards to that I’m experiencing have left me a little out of  sorts over the past few weeks.  More on that in a bit.

Since both of us acknowledged we’ve been lacking in this blogging thing, me and Sam have both agreed that for the month of December we will write a post every day.  That will hopefully turn it into a habit.

As most people realize, last Friday was the end of classes and like most people I’m studying for exams as much as I can.  I’m really quite happy with the environment my new place of residence in Fairview provides for this; Totem Park never really gave me the proper  study environment, as much as it attempts to.  I guess I need to have more  of a sense of my own space.

Well, that’s all that comes to mind for now.  Assuming I keep up with my commitments, I’ll have more to say tomorrow.

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