Was this a good day or a bad day?

Cons:
– Failed another math quiz (and by failed I mean I got it back and it was NOT a pass. BOO SCHOOL.) (This quiz is different from the one that I’m pretty sure I got a solid mark on)
– Got slightly below average on my physics midterm (I seriously – I don’t – so much – this was my fault and I hate myself for it)
– I spilled hot chocolate into Taylor’s (HE’S SUPER FRIENDLY THOUGH) backpack and got some of his papers nice and chocolate-y (I am so sorry Taylor if you ever read my blog I am so so so so sorry) …(Guys I felt like a horrible human being.)
– It got dark before I got on the bus and my shoes got wet
– I got ditched by a friend from high school that I was supposed to bus home with
– The skytrain was PACKED when I got to Commercial (Curse you rush hour!!!)
–  I managed to not absorb any information from both my lectures today.
– I haven’t touched my English 112 paper due next Wednesday (Just kidding, I promise, I’m actually multi-tasking and doing it right now too)

Pros: 
– Finished a rough draft of my Chem Lab Exam procedure (Yay acid base titrations?)
– Got free hot chocolate
– Actually did a solid 20 minute work out
– The SUN CAME OUT
– Found out I don’t have Physics Class on Thursday!
– Got through my CSP Workshop presentation alive 😀 (Though there was a little scare that the powerpoint wouldn’t work at first, but it ended up working out!)
–  I got to see that cute guy that I love to ogle on campus (Wait which one is that?) (Wait, Kim, that’s creepy)
– Pretty sure I got a solid mark on my math quiz.
– Remembering Paul Lee wasn’t from Vancouver and didn’t know what English Bay was and why fireworks were being fired from boats in the water.
– I ATE WAFFLE FRIES WITH GRAVY (So food will always be a win?)

Okay so I didn’t know how this post would go. But I started my morning receiving that horrid physics mark and it kinda ruined my entire day. But doing this really made me realize that today was not a bad day. It was a pretty damn average, basically alright, day.

Plus I ate some waffle fries. Seriously if you haven’t had those head to the SUB and go downstairs. Please eat them. Eat them for me. Enjoy them. Nomnonmnomnomnom waffle fries.

Anyways, I recommend doing this if you felt you’ve had a bad day. You’d be surprised at how many good things you can come up with. Plus it’ll make you realize that maybe, just maybe, your day wasn’t that bad at all 🙂

 

I swear I didn’t die…

Even though it feels like it’s been five hundred million years since I last blogged. (It’s been like two weeks)

I’m going to be honest guys, I’m feeling a little down.

Gotta blog about the good AND the bad right?

So here’s my “bad”: I have no idea what I’m doing right now.

I spend a lot of time thinking now a days. Thinking about if I’m in the right courses, in the right faculty, hell, am I even in the right school? There’s so much confusion and insecurity and a lot of feeling lost.

I’m pretty sure it’s totally normal for first years, but it’s still super scary.

It’s scary not knowing what the future will be like, you know? Not knowing whether or not all the effort I put into my classes now will pay off. Not knowing what I’m going to do. Not knowing if what I decide to do is something that will make me happy.

I’m a super indecisive person. I don’t really like to say that one particular thing/career would make me happy. I don’t know what I’m going to do and where I’m going to go and what I’m going to specialize in. I’M VERY CONFUSED.

Then there’s the fact that I used to get good grades in high school. Sure, it’s easy to joke about how I’m just going for a pass, but I’ve never actually felt that I would fail anything. Until first year university. I feel like I had something good going on in high school: great friends, good reputation, good standing with my teachers, super involved. And now I’m here and it’s like the rug has been ripped right out from under me.

I’m here in a place where I have no reputation, where I start fresh. And isn’t that a good thing?

Right now? No. Because no one knows that despite the horrid grades I’m getting, I actually do understand material, I’m just not good at tests. Never was. And so people usually think I’m stupid. And it’s a blow to my ego… And patience (which I already have little of) when people explain things to me thinking I can’t understand simple english.

Later on in the year (aka when I’m not feeling so pessimistic about EVERYTHING?) Yeah. It’ll be good. It’ll be nice to finally have my own self-earned rep. In high school I earned a reputation of being “smart” because my older sister was a super genius and my high school is small and we look the same. Naturally people assumed we had the same brain. (WE DEFINITELY DO NOT). So being in university where no one knows who my sister is or what grades I got, it’s a change.

I’m blogging about this because it’s literally all I keep thinking about. I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THE FUTURE. What the heck am I going to do for the rest of my life? Being a student is all I know. What the heck will happen to me.

YOU GUYS I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S GOING ON WITH ME. All I wanna do is lay on my couch and watch TV for the rest of my life. …Which is super sad. And would get boring after 2 days. But that’s what I feel like doing.

OKAY OKAY. Positive ending because I don’t want to be a total downer…

It’ll get better. And I know it will. No matter how or when it WILL get better. And if any of you are feeling the same way I am, then you are not alone (and neither am I, yay!) and I swear it’ll get better.

Positivity here I come! … (after the midterms maybe.)

This post was way longer then I thought it’d be. Sorry if I bored you with my somewhat depressing musings.

I want out of this funk asap.

Midterm Round 2!

But round 1 JUST ENDED.

Oh wait.

University don’t care. University don’t give a shit.

Okay, a few things to remember for round 2.

  1. You have now officially BEEN THERE and DONE THAT. So learn from the mistakes you made in first round and don’t let history repeat itself! If you did bad because you didn’t sleep the night before then SLEEP, YOUNG GRASSHOPPER, SLEEP.
  2. Coffee. So I actually forgot that coffee has a bad consequence… AKA: that energy you feel turns into a crash. A crash proportional to the amount of delicious caffeinated goodness you’ve consumed. So, my friends, try not to chug down the coffee so much during midterm season!
  3. Don’t forget about your classes. Remember that during the time you decide to just ignore what your prof was saying so you could study, or maybe even skipping class entirely can be a problem when that material you missed out on is on the next midterm. AKA this week.
  4. Say no to the XBox/PS3/Wii/Tumblr/WhatWeShouldCallUBC/Facebook/Twitter/Where-was-I-going-with-this
  5. Office Hours are friends.
  6. So are TAs
  7. Multiple choice shouldn’t be viewed as “1/4 chance I’m correct! :D” but instead as “35 multiple choice questions is like 35 different doors I have to open and behind ever door is a 75% chance something will punch me in the gut”. Errr, you guys I think last round was a giant hit to my ego.
  8. Do your best and hope for the best!
  9. DON’T LEAVE QUESTIONS BLANK. Even if you have no idea, write anything down, equations, explanations, conclusions. This means you made the effort and sometimes part marks happen. And if all else fails you, draw a picture. At least you’ll make the poor TA marking all of the exams smile.
  10. Group study is a wonderful thing. You can help each other with questions and such.
  11. Biology 112 students this is for you: The Cheat Sheet first round was completely useless, remember that? Just keep in mind that spending time late into the night putting as much information onto the cheat sheet (this was definitely me) is probably not going to help you this time around. Study the main concepts and understand instead of memorize! Put things like pictures and charts on The Cheat Sheet, things you know you’ll forget. Otherwise you’re wasting precious studying time.
  12. Chem 121 students: There’s probably going to be (again) too many questions for 1 hour, so pick your battles, fellow soldiers.
  13. Math 100: … Ganbare! (Which is Japanese for: good luck!)
  14. Physics 101: Formula sheets are SUPER useful! Aside from actual formulas, an idea is to put some diagrams in there! It’s really helpful! Constants too! AND CONVERSIONS, just in case you’re like me and need help with going from mL to metres cubed.
  15. KEEP YOUR HEADS UP! If you do bad on midterms, remember that there are still finals and that hard work WILL pay off. Do your best as long as it really is legitimately the best you could have done given the time you had.

No, this isn’t a super late after midterms post. It’s an early BEFORE midterms post…