Vanessa Andreotti (Indigenous scholar at UBC) suggests that with more education that we can move further to the “right” and move from soft reform to beyond-reform. With more knowledge than we can become ‘woke’. I struggle with this sentiment only because folks who live in the “everything is awesome” paradigm struggle to see their place in the mosaic of colonization’s harm. The benefits of privilege are too great. I have to admit, they are for me.  We receive praise in this culture for being: educated, fit/ thin, white, able bodied, heteronormative, cis-gendered and participate in objectives like being efficient, keeping up with styles, performing beauty (i.e., wearing make-up), using appropriate mannerism, being ‘cultured’ or being updated on culture and media. I also can’t hence the making enough money to support all the inputs, needed to survive or perhaps thrive in this neoliberal paradox. I am without a doubt guilty, working towards a graduate degree, arguably perpetuates this narrative. How can higher education authentically be decolonized when one of the key premises of higher education is research–publishing, which is often the act of disseminating packaged knowledge, with the goal to increase one’s rank and prestige