Today was my third rehearsal with the symphony orchestra, and I can tell you now, it’s way better than before.
I felt a bit lost at the first rehearsal (all right, entirely lost), but at this point I can come in when I’m supposed to, hit the notes I’m supposed to and play out without fear (well, mostly anyway). At the first rehearsal I was literally shaking with nervousness and thought my heart was going to burst out of my ears. But I had way more fun today and feel a lot better about myself. I feel that I am a valuable contributing member of the ensemble. My first rehearsal was – well, it was my first rehearsal. I had never done it before, so of COURSE it didn’t go perfectly. At the time I was very upset, but I have a tendency to be very hard on myself, and now I can see that everything is working out just fine.
I suppose that I’ve learned from this experience that a “failure” is not a permanent failure, it is merely an obstacle to overcome, a challenge to keep working away at. With time and more experience, it will get better and you will improve.
That's me! I'm a fourth year, introverted, Winnipeg-hailing, blog-writing, cookie-eating, harp-playing, yoga-doing, blanket-knitting music student at UBC. I'm always trekking around campus in my Pumas and massive black backpack, and if you spot me, come say hi! It would be nice to know someone actually reads these things!
